~...i guess promises r better left unsaid...~

time for a change

2010-11-27T02:34:00.001+08:00

just in case anyone still checks this blog, which i am pretty sure no one does anymore lol.
i've moved on to a new one
www.lifeinthekrebcycle.blogspot.com
and i promise to keep it updated more often as compared to this one :)
since i got so much free time on my hands

:)

hm

2010-03-21T00:12:00.001+08:00

there's something missing in my life

but i'm not sure what it is...

irritation

2010-03-07T17:59:00.003+08:00

this has been a very long 2 weeks

orientation is finally over!

i didnt realize how tiring it was and i didnt really realize how little i was eating in the beginning too

the first few days i only had like a meal a day or small snacks

i usually skipped dinner bcos by the time i got home every night, it was usually pretty late

and i was too tired to eat or drive to get food

shit la. i think i became a lot darker

despite my attempts to salvage my skin with sunblock, i still can see the difference in my skin colour :'(

gahhh its like everyday it's soooo hot!

the weather is killer, man

anyway, the thing i wanted to blog about was that,

i realized that i really take notice of the little things people do

and i can get soo irritated by some people

i mean some things are just basic courtesy yet many people seem completely oblivious to it

i'm just saying,

if you're not considerate to me, don't think i will be to you either

it's like.. i don't know.

stuff as petty as paying for the parking ticket or offering a nice gesture means a lot to me

and i really take note of such things

it's like.. i'll be nice to you if you're nice to me and i will be really nice to you if you're really nice back, know what i mean?

i don't know. i guess the big word is being considerate

which sooo many people are not

and it irritates the hell out of me

i mean, the other time we went out with our seniors and they drove.

i paid for his parking ticket bcos i thought since we were using his car and he had to drive around so much, i figured it was the polite and considerate thing to do.

yet, i was just amazed at how everyone else just kinda looked away or seemed oblivious to it

i don't think it's asking too much for people to be considerate, right?

change has come :)

2010-02-05T01:31:00.002+08:00

it finally happened

all those hours spent worrying, doubting, stressing, pushing, crying

it finally happened

still in disbelief though

seeing my name on the letter was just.. a kinda cool moment

alright now i've been given the opportunity

the rest is up to me

i just realized my new motto this year:

P.U.S.H

i can do it

and

i will do it

i hope

:-)

this year will be exciting

can't wait

stay tuned :P

reality

2010-01-30T01:38:00.002+08:00

i'm tired of the present

i want to go back to the past

i want to go back to this moment

the day

2010-01-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

an update of my life:

click here

thank you God

a post i wrote but never posted

2010-01-14T22:51:00.001+08:00

A new year..

Sometimes I feel like people enjoy making a big fuss over unimportant matters.

I mean, don’t get me wrong, a new year is I suppose big but…

Ah ignore me. What do I know? Maybe I’m just rambling cause I’m bitter. Haha

But come on, a countdown?

I mean.. if you really want to go all out and celebrate this joyous occasion, at least throw a party of value. I mean, look at New York City or Sydney, they really know how to throw a good banging bash. One of my dreams is to be in Madison Square Garden when the new year’s ball drops.. on tv, it looks positively beautiful and perfect. Imagine actually being there… wow, now that’ll be something.

It’s officially 2010

I must say 2009 was an exceptionally dark year… not in the sense of me being emotional or whatever but.. in the sense, so many lives were lost this, I mean last year. From celebs like Michael Jackson, Bernie Mac, the drummer from Avenged Sevenfold, Brittany Murphy, Heath Ledger to people you knew growing up like Aaron. I don’t know if it’s just me but somewhere along the year, it hit me that many lives were taken this year.. I don’t know.. it just got me wondering.

reflections

2010-01-04T20:54:00.003+08:00

for a very long time now, i have come to the realization that i am not a very nice person.

i am able to treat some people so cruelly

it's always so much easier when someone gives you a scenario like someone doing wrong or someone bullying someone and you simply go 'oh that's wrong. he shouldn't do that. that's mean.'

its so so so SO easy to judge, to criticise

but when the person in that scenario is you, it's completely different.

everything changes

suddenly, it doesn't seem that wrong to join the crowd and make fun of someone

it doesn't seem wrong or cruel to add to that person's pain

it doesn't even occur to you how that person must feel

it doesn't occur to you that all that person ever needed was a friend, someone to talk to

at that moment, you're only caught up in yourself and the crowd,

what everyone is doing

despite your previous noble statements about right and wrong, you pick up your own stone and throw it at the targetted individual

this reminds of the story 'The Lottery'.

i don't know

i always think and reflect a lot of myself and what i've done during my exam cramming periods

for some reason, my mind always drifts away from my books and to my life and my actions

the result being:

i have wronged many individuals

individuals who have never done anything wrong to me

individuals whom had only wanted my companionship, instead i pushed their hands away

i looked away

i turned away

while cramming for my final exam, i even wrote down the names of people whom i thought i ought to apologise to, specifically for wronging them

i look back now and wonder, how could i do such a thing?

what i would give... to go back and have a do over

i wonder what kinda person i would be today if i did have the chance

i wonder if i like myself

hmm

i just want to say, despite the fact that many those i've wronged won't read this,

i just want you to know, i'm sorry

you deserve better

wtf

2009-12-24T16:37:00.002+08:00

I HATE BIAS PEOPLE

it frigging pisses me off

why can't some people just look at the facts presented in front of them and just deal with it?

why can't they just accept it for what it is?

it's so frigging stupid

wtf man

just shut up

g2 days

2009-12-18T13:24:00.007+08:00

haha

i love this picture

it totally captures what my life was like in taylors

haha dan

the contrast in our personalities is evident as shown above

hahaha

hm notice how college is like making the perfect cocktail?

you throw in a bunch of random flavors and drinks to see what matches

it may not taste so great at first but after a couple of tries, you eventually get a reasonably good taste.

they say the friends you make in college last a lifetime.

well.. if you're lucky, some of them might just be half decent

:-)

miss the G2 days

P.S that hurt like hell

-.-

lol

crime life

2009-12-17T02:29:00.002+08:00

after a night of l4d-ing with the usual people, joel and i decided to drive around a bit, just talking about random stuff. we stayed at mickey dees till like 1am something then drove around. I sent him back around 2ish.

seeing as how it was late and dark and slightly creepy, i decided to take a short cut home.

instead of taking the long U-turn back to my house, i took an illegal shorter U-turn.

imagine my luck when I see a flash of bright blue lights to my right..

a police car.

O.O

frightened out of my wits, i turned over
this is my first ever run in with the law, so duh i was kinda crapping in my pants, so to speak. -.-

i usually don't break rules -.-

i'm a very law abiding citizen -.-

and i have never rasuah-ed a law enforcement before, or anyone for that matter

so i had no idea how it worked..

i kept saying stuff like i was only a student and that i've never done the illegal turn before (not true :P ) etc etc.

i was terrified of offending them if i offered them money

but they kept saying stuff like 'you happy, we happy, everyone happy'

then i figured it was probably safe

so i gave them rm20

sighs

lesson learnt :

never ever listen to joel ngeaw

stupid git

if chase scenes were real

2009-12-07T17:03:00.001+08:00

haha i know this video is kinda old and some people must have seen it by now..

but i think its frigging hilarious still.

i love community channel :P

2nd car accident :-(

2009-11-29T16:16:00.002+08:00

A day before finally going home to Kuching...

this happens

-.-

I was on the way to One U with phoebs, following dan and sean from behind.

The traffic was pretty bad and thinking about it now, I guess it was my fault.

I was tail-gating.

sighs

As a result, I didn't get to do what i planned to and I didn't get to send dan off properly :-(

I was too busy, freaking out.

sighs

I HATE KL DRIVERS!

ESPECIALLY THOSE ARSEHOLES WHO KEPT HONKING AT ME AS THEY DROVE BY ME ON THE HIGHWAY!

argh like what the hell?

people kept honking at me, even bloody motorcyclists.

HELLO?!

It is obvious that I am so not in the mood to be honked at.

(FYI, I absolutely DETEST it when people honk at me. Never do that to me. Unless there's a frigging monster behind me, don't bloody honk at me. -.-)

Anyway, being home is great.

I really missed the food.

Everything tastes good.

:-)

I got friends from KL coming over on the 7th, which is great.

It gives me something to do.

Now I just need to find what we should do when they're here.

Hmmm

maybe jungle trekking

:-P

a very much needed update

2009-11-17T02:27:00.005+08:00

okay so finals are officially over :-)

been over for a couple of days now

right after my finals though, whats the first thing restless college students do?

haha

head straight to genting of course ;-)

wait actually the first thing i did was meet up with Jasmine.

where i bought her book, Behind that Shiny Resume

we went to pyramid with Vino to meet up with Hua Yen and Shu Jun.

then we left with Phoebs

and spent some much needed time l4d-ing without any guilt :P

it felt weird though

there were moments when I thought of saying

'Oh crap. I should go back already la. Study.'

but now it was like..

'What now? hmm.'

haha kinda like the feeling after SPM

we killed zombies till we were light headed then drove to nathans for mamak

awww and dan bought me a new wallet

considering the fact, my old one looked like it was kinda sprouting roots..

definately something growing though O.o

i was really taken aback by it so that was really sweet :-)

sean got me a laminated photo filled with silly pictures he took of me throughout the year

my wall of shame i suppose :P

most of 'em aren't exactly flattering :(

oh wells

btw i was completely speechless when i got seans gift

:-)

vino got me an l4d expansion cd :-)

aww so sweet people

shall post about genting after this

:)

2009-11-03T17:17:00.003+08:00

shall update after finals :-)

lol notice my posts are getting shorter and shorter..

haha promise a nice decent one after finals

see ya then

:-)

unrelated to previous post

2009-10-13T22:21:00.005+08:00

i feel unhappy

why?

on a different note,

it's happening

it's actually happening

and i'm scared out of my mind

2009-10-09T23:23:00.005+08:00

you know what really pisses me off?

people who think i'm stupid or incapable of doing the simplest of things

like booking a frigging flight

fixing a problem

you know what,

you thinking i can't do it,

only makes ME think i can't do it

so screw you

for making me doubt myself

making me think i'm incompetent

and idiotic

and useless

In God we trust

2009-09-23T02:48:00.003+08:00

trials are over

that was.. certainly an experience

studying and cramming everything

it was strange though

this time around, i wasn't as panicky or stressed or angry or depressed or whatever, as i used to be

i was calm and collected

there were times when i could feel my heart starting to race and i could feel an anxiety attack taking over but.. i managed to calm myself down and do the papers the best i could

i just kept repeating 'In God we trust'.

literally

i don't know

i wonder about the outcome

i gave it a shot and i have no regrets

hopefully i will still feel the same afterwards :P

sighs

sometimes you just can't control

you do what you can and leave the rest up to Him

sounds cliche but its true

i just hope His plan is similar to my plan

happy raya everyone

In God we trust

time flies

2009-09-10T00:22:00.006+08:00

i was looking at my calendar on my desktop

and

it hit me

another month or so of college,

and it's all over.

scary

how can i keep from singing?

2009-09-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

There is an endless song

Echoes in my soul

I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come

I am holding on

To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise

How can I ever say enough

How amazing is Your love

How can I keep from shouting Your name

I know I am loved by the King

And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes

In the darkest night

For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You

Knowing You'll see me through

And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times

Sing when I win

I can sing when I lose my step

And fall down again

I can sing 'cause You pick me up

Sing 'cause You're there

I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord

When I call to You in prayer

I can sing with my last breath

Sing for I know

That I'll sing with the angels

And the saints around the throne

sad

2009-09-07T20:55:00.004+08:00

bad case of missing my bffs right now

victoria, natalie, ben

i miss you guys

sighs

come back

:-(

the toe cramp

2009-08-25T22:14:00.006+08:00

today i learnt that there is such a thing as 'toe cramp'

such intense pain that you can't even walk

hahaha

thankfully, we had a saviour nearby who voluntarily suggested massaging the toes of the poor victim

hahaha

kuchaaaaaaaaaaang baby

2009-08-17T02:04:00.003+08:00

the girls are back

:)

nothing can ever compare to home :)

moo?

2009-07-22T23:37:00.002+08:00

i saw cows today..

i was so surprised i nearly stopped my car..

well, technically, i did.. to take the photo

lol damn kuno

i was staring at it lyk it was from outer space or smtg lol quite funny

thoughts

2009-07-19T15:13:00.002+08:00

sometimes when i am still awake in bed, i start thinking about it

especially after someone asked me about it during the day

i go back and lie down and just ponder for a moment

then sometimes my heart rate quickens and i feel my palms starting to sweat

i feel nerves and i am lying there, agitated and a little scared

what happens if i don't?

what's next?

this really keeps me up at night sometimes

which is why i try my best not to think about it at all

but yet, sometimes.. it just hits me from no where and i'm left lying there, feeling scared

finally won smtg in my life lol

2009-07-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

SCREENING DETAILS
DATE: 14 July 2009 (Tuesday)
TIME: 9.30pm
VENUE: GSC, Mid Valley

Redemption time : 7.00pm - 8.30pm
Note: Please bring along your Identification Card for ticket redemption at the Redemption Counter.

Contest has ended
CONGRATULATIONS TO THE FOLLOWING WINNERS

2 x Preview Passes
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ALAN YEO
ANGELA OOI YEN NEE
ARYSTLE KUAN
CHAN EIMEI
CHARLENE THAW CHAI LYNN
CHEONG SIEW YING
CHONG QUEK CHOON
CHOW LAK KEONG
DANIEL LEE TEK AUN
FADZIDA ISMAIL
FARAH DANIA BINTI SUHAIZAN
FOO MEI YEE
HASNATUL FARHANA HASSAN
JOANN ANG HUI FERN
JUITA HUSSEIN
KHAIRUL ZAFIR
LEE LEONG YEE
LEONG SHAU TANG
LETICIA YEOH PEI TZE
LIANG VOON CHIANG
LIM POON LOY
LIM SHENG YEE
LISHA
LUA MEI MEI
MICHAEL JASON CAMPTON
NG SIOK HIONG
NGU WEE PING
NIDZAM KAMARUDDIN
NIZAM JAMARI
NORZAWIYAH BINTI MOHD MUHIDDIN
NUR AZAM K
NURUL NADIA CHE MOHAMED SAFRI
ONG CHONG HENG
ROSHINI CLAIRE
SERENA TAN MEI HUA
SHAHRIR ARIF
SITI AISYAH AMIR
SITI NAQUIA BINTI ABDUL RAHIM
TONG MUN KHUEN
VALERIE LOH
WAH LI LIAN
YAP KEAT MING
YVONNE SIEW
ZALMAN MOHD FAUZAN

wheeeeeeeeeeeee i never win stuff
:D
anyone available on the 14th?
;)

my materialistic fantasy

2009-07-06T23:36:00.005+08:00

this is going to sound super spoilt and i don't usually post about this sort of things but i think i'm going to make an exception for this one :)

i WANT an IPHONE

i am absolutely positively in love with the idea of having an iphone :(

first off, the keypad on my phone is kinda cacat.

example: when i ask people for their numbers, they type and then go 'ehh? i can't... press 7.. ' -.-

hhahaah

second reason, have you seen an iphone?!

isn't it absolutely the most beautiful phone ever created?

haha

i don't think i've ever wanted a phone so much before.

crap becoming materialistic :(

but can you blame me?

its beautifuuul!

its perfectioooon.

gaahh :(

the more i look at one, the more i want it. lol

so niceeeee :(

but i can't help thinking about what PC was talking about in SNL last week about giving back to parents and not just asking.

Being a giver, and not just a taker.
and yes, this is why i'm not begging for one which is kinda pathetic
instead, i'm just gona close my eyes and wait till one suddenly falls in my lap
:(
sighs gahh

a girl can dream :)

no comparison whatsoever

:)

sighs

happy 18th phoebs! :)

2009-06-30T20:25:00.004+08:00

happy birthday to the one who makes living in KL so much more fun :)

daredevil haha
what's this? prefect breaking the rules? alamak

to one of my best friends,

happy 18th bday hoe :)

wad-ever video

2009-06-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

hahaha
WAD-EVAAAAAAAH hahha

courtesy of evone hoe
so cute

t-sweezy & t-pain

2009-06-17T20:14:00.002+08:00

just probably the strangest collaboration ive ever heard.. O.o
haha but i still love taylor swift =D
lol

interesting story of the week

2009-06-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

Timely fish tale: Hawaii fish coughs up gold watch

ELEELE, Hawaii – Hawaii resident Curt Carish boasts a timely fish tale: a 10-inch reef fish he caught by hand in shallow water coughed up a ticking gold watch.

Carish says he was enjoying a picnic Wednesday on Port Allen beach when he saw the nenue fish awkwardly swimming close to shore.

He says a friend gave him a bamboo stick and told him to get the fish. So he jumped into the waist-high water and hit the nenue until it went limp.

He noticed the fish had an abnormally large belly as he tossed it into a cooler.

A friend opened the cooler later to discover a gold watch next to the fish's mouth.

Carish says the watch was ticking and keeping correct time.

hahahha well i'll be.

interesting nevertheless

secrets

2009-06-01T19:49:00.003+08:00

today was a very surprising afternoon

i discovered a few things that really just left me speechless and a lil confused

i don't know

i guess some people are just not what you expect

i mean, who really knows someone?

like really

no one

there's a thought

on a completely different note, i've been bitten by the GG bug
:)

update!

2009-05-27T00:23:00.003+08:00

to my blog which is already dead.

well, i'm back in kch! :P haha
came back last thursday night. gahh the airports had several masked avengers, which kinda creeped me out cos it just made the whole swine flu epidemic more real and scary to me.
i was so paranoid i kept washing my hands, much to my sister's annoyance -.-

anywhoo, reached home and inhaled cleaaaaaaaaaaaan kch air
aaaah miss home :)

i dont know how many movies ive watched since i arrived. o.O let's see

twilight- on the plane
slumdog millionaire -i dont think it was such a greaaat movie but probably the nicest asian one ive seen.
angels & demons - didn't really lyk it that much
wolverine- but was in kl wif evone ppl, two words : FRIGGING AWESOME!! :)
DEBS - introduced by joey. watched it few years ago but was bored so watched again after download.
21 - rmrb radhie saying it sucked or smtg but watched anyway
Fast & Furious 4 - pretty cool but i still prefered the tokyo drift one i think. this one seemed to be missing smtg.. hmmm

yeah i feel lyk theres more but i cant rmrb. hahah damn sad right?

ooo i forgot. on the ride from kl to kch, i had the most interesting plane flight ever. my sister sat next to someone who was really sociable and he kept talking the whole way through, not in the annoying way though.

i was lyk trying to sleep but i ended up eavesdropping their convo which ranged from medicine to christianity O.O haha it was really interesting. ko im gona go wash my facee. just got back from supper wif the kl gang and some kch people :)

gah supper makes people fat.
celakaaa :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GT,D2!!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LI JI!! :) I STILL HATE YOOH! :)
haha

:(

2009-05-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

looking at my desktop picture which is one of the nice group pics with OMG..

i realized something

i miss oyster :(

i can do it

2009-05-17T03:02:00.003+08:00

i can do it

i can do it

i can do it

i can do it

i can do it

i can do it

i can do it

i can do it

i can do it

i will do it

kch in a week baby!!
:)

world hunger

2009-05-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

got this off jasmine's blog

.....

speechless

a new day?

2009-05-01T15:36:00.006+08:00

I have decided to change, for the better I guess..

After reading my previous posts, I can see that I've subjected myself to unnecessary pressure and stress. I mean, it's good to have some pressure in life, but what's the point if it becomes overbearing that it becomes all you can think about?

From now onwards, I am no longer going to be emo and angry at myself all the time.

I'm gona try to get by everyday with what I got.

I'm gona try to stop being so careless and be more careful in thinking and writing.

I'm gona try my best to not hate myself whenever I realize I made a mistake.

I'm gona try to refrain from gossip and such deeds.

I'm gona try to make my parents proud

I have to at least try.

lovestory meets viva la vida

2009-05-01T11:21:00.002+08:00

check it out

absolutely genius

love it :)

idiots

2009-04-25T00:48:00.003+08:00

i have to get something off my chest.

i absolutely HATE IT when people comment on other people lyk

'omg u did your work? WOW! YOU'RE SO HARDWORKING!'

it fking pisses me off.
lyk what the hell is wrong with you?
why the hell must you say that so loudly again in front of everyone as if the person is a freak or smtg?
if she wants to do her work, LET HER FKING DO HER WORK.
WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM?
YOU GOT PROBLEM WITH HER DOING HER WORK IS IT?

WTF IS WRONG WIF THAT?
JEEZ
AS IF YOU'RE NOT AT HOME STUDYING YOUR ASS OFF
BUT WHEN YOU COME TO SCHOOL 'OH NOO I NEVER STUDY. SHIT LA HOW SO HARD?'
FCK THAT

some people in my school love doing it
i can be in the library copying notes
and someone can come up from behind me and say
'WOW so hardworking eh?'

WTF WAIT
LET ME ASK YOU SOMETHING
WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THE LIBRARY?

EATING? SLEEPING?
WHAT? I'M CURIOUS

STUDYING? POSSIBLY
UH OH THAT MAKES YOU DAMN HARDWORKING LE!

SO WTF DO U GIVE ME SO MUCH SHIT FOR JUST COPYING NOTES FROM OTHER PEOPLE
WTF

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY STUFF LYK
'OH YOU DID THE PAPERS? WOW SHIT LA. YOU DAMN HARDWORKING LE.'

those people who claim 'Oooo.. i didn't study how how?' and get good grades
can just go screw themselves.
cant you just go along with your own life and do your work and shut the hell up?
as if commenting on other people makes you feel any smarter or superior
wtf is wrong with you?

you stereotype people when you do stuff lyk that
i was talking to someone about a smart person then she went and gave me a disgusted face and said
'HAI YA! THAT ONE DAMN NERD ONE LA. STUDY ALL THE TIME ONE.'

i was thinking WTF
you don't even know that other person well
so what if they're good in studies?
you claim their studies damn good so they no life la
they're immediately nerds?

WTF IS WRONG WITH BEING A NERD?
I WANA BE A FKING NERD

to people who are what i just described,
SCREW YOU and GET A LIFE

i never win

2009-04-24T15:59:00.005+08:00

why do i bother?
i can never seem to win
this whole week has been so shitty
probably the worst week that i can ever remember having
test after test after test

screwed up my fking math investigative study shit
screwed up my math test
probably screwed up my chem test too
and bio

bio was the ONLY paper was so sure i did well in cos i spent the whole weekend studying for it
then just now..

ms ong said i used pencil to darken the objective space on the last page
in taylors, we suppose to use pen
so as a lesson to me, she only take half of all my correct obj answers

if she hadn't done that, i would have gotten 47/56

W. T. F.

then i came to a conclusion,

i will never amount to anything in life

i have this great opportunity here and i'm just blowing it

i just never win
in everything i do

i never win

to aaron teo 2

2009-04-11T14:59:00.003+08:00

sisters for life ;-)

stay strong everyone
he wouldn't have wanted everyone to be so sad
remember him happy
that's what i'm doing

last pics of him in my phone
him in a hair band lol

see i wasn't making it up
he actually wore a hair band.
lol he said it was too hot in KL.
notice how he folds his legs LOL
doing what he does best.
talking on his phones :P

to aaron teo

2009-04-09T20:18:00.004+08:00

words can't describe

'Bless are those who mourn for they will be comforted' matt 5:4

"Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies, and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. " John 11:25-26

i don't usually read the bible but this situation changes everything

my heart goes out to those who knew and loved him

from my post in POY :

to aaron

does anyone know how to move on after going through something lyk this?
cause i don't
please someone teach me, fill me in.
i.... i.... i still can't accept..... what's happened.
this morning, i went to school, went to phoebs apartment,
we just sat there and cried and shared some words.
i was calm and cool after we left
but when i saw shui mich and brian..
i broke down again.
i thought my tears would reach a limit whereby i would eventually just run out of them..
but that hasn't happened yet..

words can't describe.

this is not real..
this doesn't happen to real people.
it doesn't happen to your friends
and it certainly does not happen to good people

i just feel.. empty

i keep waiting for the time
when he'll reappear with his goofy smile and crooked glasses
when he'll crack a joke at me or elvina
when he would wear his hair band again, whereby suffering endless taunts from elv and i
when he would gel his hair up so high that he looked lyk a shark in a crowd
when he would offer us his cute yellow umbrella when it was raining
when he would smile whilst giving me that annoyed look whenever i said 'nos_evolution'
when he would swear when he was angry/happy/all the time actually :)

there's enough sadness on blogs, facebook, msn
i think we should dedicate this weekend to writing our fondest and happiest memories of aaron here.

the sun will to shine again people
i just need someone to constantly remind me that.

Godspeed everyone.

RIP aaron
1991-2009

college life part smtg

2009-04-04T12:02:00.002+08:00

the movies lied

college life is sooooo not what they portrayed on tv

:(

lol

LOL physics joke.
LOL so frigging funny this one.
must show mr.yong :P

2009-03-30T21:58:00.002+08:00

i just realized today that majority of everyone i know in kl,
has had or is still with a girlfriend or boyfriend.
hmm intereeesting

haha random observation today :)

k back to scratching off all the scalp on my head as i tackle maths
-.-

:)

extra ingredient in porridge

2009-03-22T14:45:00.002+08:00

today for breakfast, we decided to bite off more than we can chew
(geddit? geddit? -_-)
we ordered two pan mees for each other and a bowl of porridge.
after our pan mee, we were already so full.
but we had to eat the porridge anyway.
after awhile, she gave up but i was still slowly but steadily going
lol
but then, i bit onto something hard.
when i spitted it out, it hit the table with a loud thud sound.
i looked at it and discovered that it was....

a stone..
a stone in my porridge
a stone that was hidden in the meat.. i think
a stone.

she said it was a sign from God that i should stop eating.
which i did
i dont know if i should be grossed out or disgusted.
hmm
that was how my morning went today
:)

thoughts

2009-03-20T20:55:00.004+08:00

i have one shot here.

a chance to really do something.

why not take it?

missing my other half

2009-03-10T15:15:00.002+08:00

i miss you blatrever

:(

bad people

2009-03-08T15:22:00.006+08:00

sighs

there are two people i hate the most, namely:

Ms. Angry

&

Ms. Judgemental

i let these two individuals control my life too much

that has to stop

dead

2009-03-07T17:45:00.001+08:00

i just screwed up big time.

oh shit

hectic days

2009-03-06T19:34:00.004+08:00

does anyone know how it feels to just be plain unlucky?
a trail of mishaps that just seem... endless?
sighs well if you have, i guess i can say i know what that feels like now.

lets start off with the most recent events like today.
i woke up at 6.10ish am.
that was enough to make me jump out of my bed and into the bathroom.

usually, i try to get up around 5.40ish am so i can leave the house by 6am.
then i drive to the kopitiam that i go to nearly everyday for my morning booster namely KL's infamous cheeeeong-fan
(spelt so because that's the way i pronounce it :) )

okay so after that, it will be about 6.30-40ish am.
then i drive to school which takes me about 20-30 minutes
the reason for all of this?

TO GET GOOD PARKING!

DUH!

aduhai

i ended up parking in front of subway there.
okay fast forward, first period was chemistry lab.
i brought my lab coat but was wearing slippers.
it didn't really occur to me that i can only wear shoes to the lab -_-

anyway, after ms. kwa gave out the instructions for our practical,i walked to the back to get the supplies.

suddenly..

kwa : "SANDRA! get out! you're wearing slippers."

sandra : *dong face* "Ha? seriously?"

kwa : *super serious stern face aka the face where her eyes turn really big* "SERIOUS! GET OUT"

so i left the lab, dumbfounded.
i frantically began to call all my friends, asking if any of them were wearing shoes.
none of them answered which was expected as everyone were in their respective classes.
then i msg-ed phoebs for shoes.

she didn't reply and i figured she either left it in her bag or didn't hear it or couldn't reply since she was in class as well.
i began running up and down campus, looking for people familiar enough to lend me their pair of their shoes.
it was kinda silly.

everytime someone walked by me, i would stare at their shoes first then their faces. -_- everyone seemed to be wearing shoes.

in my state of histeria, i got a crazy idea of asking the web assistant/helper/guy if i could possibly borrow his shoes.
lol I WAS DESPERATE!!

this was how the conversation went :

(first meeting)
sandra : hey
web guy: hey

(second meeting)
sandra : "Hey, excuse me, can i talk to you for a sec?
*he came out of the web* Hey,i know this is very random but can i borrow your shoes for 10bucks?"

web guy : "Err.. i don't borrow people my shoes for 10bucks"

sandra: *thinking he meant he wanted more* "Err.. 20bucks?"

web guy : "Err.. i need my shoes to work."

sandra: "Oh okay nvm then. thanks!"

*inside, im thinking 'asswhite!'*
haha kidding

so i continued my search. -_-
then, received a text message from phoebs saying jon has shoes! woohoo!
i ran to their class which was D28 -_-.. i was at level B at the time.
i ran there in about 10secs -_-

i burst into the door and saw that it was CHONG teaching!
haha anyway, i must have looked quite a sight, panting and sweating, barely got my words out :

"CAN...
I.....
SEEEE..
JON..
....
PLEASEEE?"

haha love jon to death! jon i love u! i owe u big time!
then ran back to chem lab, finished the experiment.

i guess the adrenaline was still pumping inside of me, so i was still kinda jumpy.
so jumpy in fact, that i broke a conical flask. -_-

i turned up the water pressure too high and just broke it..
cut my ring finger.

worst part was my eyes started tearing up a little.
how gay is that?
it didn't hurt that much but it stinged a little only.

MY TEAR DUCTS ARE BROKEN!
they always go on by themselves -_-
usually at the wrong times again! idiots!
how embarrassing.

anywhoo, i think that was pretty much how things went this morning. hm
OOOH YEAH.
i got a parking ticket for 80bucks!
cause i parked outside someone's house cos i was late for class and cos there was no other parkings available.
pretty swell, uh?
-_____-

SAM fiesta was kinda disappointment for me FYI.
the music was bad. everytime a catchy clubbing tune came on, and people started grooving to it, they turned it off. -_- how retarded is that?
the choir was kinda weird and random. they were good but random to be placed in the fiesta.

met a lot of very fun and friendly people namely phoeb's classmates.
hmm there was a bit of dancing towards the end but sighs. wish it happened earlier.
hm yeah that's about it.

watching american idol now
hope anoop gets in.

**************

ANOOP GOT IN! TOP 13!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!
I LOVEEEEE ANOOOP DAWG!! =D

a quote to rmrb

2009-02-28T23:40:00.003+08:00

tonight in church, i learnt something that was really true.

someone quoted this :

"Sin will make you go further than you want to go,
make you stay longer than you want to stay,
cost you more than you want to pay."

i couldn't help but agree.

think about it.

:)

i love SNL

poor rihanna

2009-02-20T18:17:00.003+08:00

domestic violence is so WRONG!

people who do it are just.. heartless uncontrollable animals with no emotions.

okay when i first heard of the rihanna and chris brown incident, i was trying to think logically. since everyone else was already siding rihanna and talking smack about chris brown, i was thinking we should give him the benefit of the doubt and let him explain himself.

but when i saw the photo the police took of her when they first reached the scene, every being in my body boiled. literally.

how the hell anyone could ever do that to someone they supposedly love, is just..
it's just so unimaginable!

people get beaten up for many reasons, sometimes good but in this case, chris brown deserves no mercy.

just like how he showed none when he viciously attacked rihanna.
rihanna deserves so much better

want to see her fter having met Chris Brown's abusing hand?

click right here.

this is so disturbing

i heard it on the radio but i couldn't imagine something as terrible as this.

chris brown deserves no forgiveness

the authorities should really drop the ball on this one

he deserves to be taught a lesson

he sends his sincere apologies..

like what the hell?

he seriously needs help

at the end of the day, all you can wonder is

'WHAT THE HELL?!!'

life wif 44

2009-02-06T15:42:00.005+08:00

alright this post is going to be the first of its kind
namely, i am going to be lashing out at someone i know.
let's call her 44.

alright so every since the first day of orientation,
i've been trying to be friends with my classmates.
i'm pretty shy to be honest but seeing as how i'm going to be seeing them for a whole year,
i figured it was worth a shot.
everything went pretty well.
people in my class are really friendly and fun.

i really like my class plus the teachers are really good too, esp my physics teacher.
he makes physics really interesting (i know right? physics! lol.)

anyway, before i get side-tracked, there is one particular person whom i'm not so 'fond' of.
in other words, she's the least liked person in my class for me.
i don't know what her deal is exactly since i can't think of offending her in any manner.

few examples why i feel she doesn't like me :
(btw, my friend told me i was being bias since i already didn't like her etc. etc. so you be the judge.)

1) everytime i try to talk a conversation with her, she shuts me down. she replies with a short answer and turns her head the other way. -_-

eg. i say : 'Hey, do you play pool? Want to join the club together?'
(lame i know but i was trying to be friendly)

she says : 'Yeah. Er.. no/not really/see first.'
(i forgot what she said)

then she turns her head.

eg. i say : 'Hey, i heard you're dad's a doctor.'

she says : 'HAH?! FROM WHO?'
(she answered that way -_- no idea why..)

i say : 'er.. heard from sean.'

she says : 'Ceh, his mouth so big'
(okay i think she said that, im not sure.)
then she turns her head.

2) she hardly ever talks to me. even when i'm sitting next to her in class. one incident in class was like this :

*random* she says : 'Eh sandra. are thoose your school shoes?'
(the way she said it was lyk she was looking down at me or smtg. that was how i felt at least.)

i say : 'Er.. NO. They're converse. They're not even white. They're pale pink'

she says : 'Oh really kah? oh okay.' then she turns her head. -_-"

3) she singles me out in stuff

eg. we took a class photo in the chem lab with her phone. she was bluetoothing it to everyone. i sat behind her in maths so i asked her to send to me too. just then, another friend asked her to send it to her as well.

she says : 'Oh okay. wait i send to Mei Yee first.'

i think : 'okay whatever la .'

then later, she still didn't send it to me.

i say : 'Eh 44, can u send me the pic?'

she says : 'Yeah wait.'

still no picture.
in the end, i just gave up and asked from another friend in class who had it.

eg. we took a class pic in school today again in bio class. i am walking in to class with my friend and we were late.

she says : 'Hua Yen! come take pic! Hua Yen! hurry up! come take pic!!'

FYI, i am standing right next to HY.
i just ignore it and walk to my desk.
btw, i really don't care if she doesn't like me since i couldn't care less.
but i am curious though as too why she doesn't like me.

anyway, i find her more and more annoying everyday in school.
maybe it's because i'm bias now or whatever but she's really kind of irritating during class.
i got a few people who agree with me so maybe i'm not being completely bias.
either way, i honestly couldn't give a damn.
i found a few friends whom i can connect with and i really enjoy hanging out with so it's all good.

:) haha yeah that's all i had to say.
gotta go. my plane's here :P
i'm going home babeh :D
kch here i come!

nigahiga at his best

2009-01-30T14:39:00.001+08:00

possibly one of the funniest video's i've ever watched on youtube.
haha nigahiga rocks.

guess whoooose back biatches?:)

2009-01-25T21:16:00.007+08:00

hello lovely people.
guess what?
3 weeks of college has flown by and
i'm still in one piece. :)

just got back from KL today actually.
woke up at 7am -_- too early
had McDs for breakfast which is kinda weird because who mixes egg with jam, slice of meat and bread?
that's just weird.

saw some drama-rama at the airport too.
some china woman was screaming at the red airport lady (the one you greet when you want to check in your luggage etc.)
that was good enough to wake me up and stare at her.
it was pretty bad i think cause the red-airport-lady was crying.
haha poor thing. never piss off a china woman :P

anyway, home is good.
home is familiar :)
diana and i were comparing the difference between kch and kl.
the roads seem larger in kch.
prolly because every surface of kl roads are covered with vehicles -_-

it's a strange mix of emotions right now actually.
my couch where i used to spent countless hours watching tv or dozing on is still as comfy as ever.
being away has made me grateful of a lot of things.
like how spacious and comfy the bmw is compared to the proton.
how wide and empty the roads are (prolly due to cny but still)
how fresh and clean the air is!! -_- (compared to kl, please.)
how everything is located so near ! (no more half an hour or hour long traffic jams etc etc)

life is just good right now. :)
to everyone whose away from home,
happy cny :)

here's a pic of my class, G2
:)
i feel very fortunate to be in this class.
unlike my other friends who say their classmates are weird and anti-social.
the people are funny, whacky, lame but friendly.
like i said, everything happens for a reason.

alright.
it's frigging cny!
let's break out the cards! :P
happy holidays guys.

college life

2009-01-09T23:02:00.003+08:00

college life. dammn i sound old.
anyway, omg i'm in college now.
how frigging weird is that?

okay okay so anyway, orientation was awkward.
i am in G2 and i'm completely by myself!
i mean, i'm the only lodgian there,
the only kch person too!

signed in at student central with my family.
omg taylors was flooded with students and they were all just from SAM!
then, i had to dash off to MPH for the orientation talk or something.
met Phoebs along the way and Brian's kinda good looking housemate.
haha that's a different story.

i didn't introduce myself even when Brian intro-ed him to me
. -_- i am seriously lame.
don;t know why i did that.

anyway, the talk was lame! and boring!
something about mother eagles and baby eagles.
obviously, we're the baby eagles -_-
blah blah blah
sat with Aaron Teo and jon.

went to our classes when it was over.
argh argh argh.
it was totally weird cause when i walked into mine.

(i sat in the front row)
(because a girl in front of me kinda stalled a bit,
-blocking my way-
trying to figure out which seat didn't make you look too lame or nerdy and which seat made you cool enough that a random person would have the courage to talk to you.)

SO I did the idiotic decision of sitting in front.
omg i regretted it immediately because, who the hell sits in the front row during the orientation?
-_-
i thought about pretending to walk out to go to the toilet or something then walk back in and sit a different seat but i figured i was over-thinking it and just let it be.

i prayed someone would sit next to me so i could maybe start up a conversation.
HAHA I SOUND SO SAD AND LAME.

haha i saw some people interacting around already and it just made me sink deeper into my seat. -_-
im so lame la.
anyway, orientation ended quickly.
my mentor intro-ed and then let us off.

sighs

but first week of school just ended and it's.. okay i guess.
wait.. slash that.
first week of COLLEGE just ended. haha

ooh ooh i drove to taylors yesterday and the day before yesterday.
haha thank God the roads are basically straight but long.
KL drivers are crazy impatient idiots.

every small opening they see on the road, it's basically an invitation to zoom their big arse vehicle in.

argh haha but i'm learning fast :P
hm i made a couple of friends now but no close ones though.
it sucks that our lunch times are all different so i can't meet up with phoebs or the rest somedays.

oh well, i'm not in the 'in' crowd in my class because i'm not outspoken enough i think.
but at least, i have some friends :) mostly locals though.
yeah guess that's about it.

on the upside, there is one good thing about college life.

by the end of this year, i am going to have Beyonce legs babey :)

all this walking around, whilst slinging my heavy arse bag AND carrying heavy arse books all day long will definately take its toll on my boday.

haha something that i keep running through my mind whenever i'm huffing and puffing as i power-walk my way to my classes. haha

tell me about your college life :)
leave a tag and a link and i will go view it.

hope you guys are enjoying it.

going sunway pyramid tomorrow with phoebs.

IT'S THE FRIGGING WEEKEND BABEY!

TIME TO UNWIND :)

happy bloody new years

2008-12-31T17:43:00.009+08:00

today is the last day of the year.
honestly, i thought i be spending it happier surrounded by friends and entertainment and laughter.

but due to recent events, i just don't feel like a celebratory mood.
not like i can go out anyway either.

if someone told me a few days ago that this would be how i'm spending my new years,
i wouldn't have believed them.

i hope everyone has a great happy new year.

what a shitty way to end 2008 and to start 2009.

oh and on a totally different topic,
i hate people who can't say what they feel.
i hate the kind of people who say things just for the sake of saying them, you know?
i mean, what for say it if you don't mean it?

there is this person whom is never able to just say what he feels.

he always keeps to himself and never really gives an honest opinion about a particular subject.

he says what he thinks he's suppose to say, or at least, what a good friend is suppose to say.

but his words doesn't come from the heart.

i just hate it!
whenever i'm down or something, he'll say something like
'oh hey how are you? hope you feel better.'

or some crap like that.
notice how cold his message is.
there's no worry, there's no actual sense of concern.

it's just like a robot talking.

argh
and the person is not necessarily a guy to the low IQ-ed.

i read that Taylor Swift's going to be in NY for new years, performing.
along with the Jonas Brothers.
i heard that new years in NY was a life changing experience and really beautiful.

...

i hope i can someday witness it too.

status of my beloved sasha

2008-12-30T02:37:00.002+08:00

it went down to 171 GB!@#!@#!#!@#!#

someone stop the madness!!

btw, i get it now.

it's prolly my virtual memory or whatever

but how do i get rid of that?!@#!@#

i should have totally paid more attention to Mr.Nelson Tang during computer class

-_-

instead of playing Red Alert with the guys

-_-

i have sinned.

technologically challenged

2008-12-28T13:23:00.003+08:00

i am so irritated.

last night i was happily watching Gossip Girls.

i checked my computer and saw that i had 177GB in my local drive.

yay that's good.

then, i went to sleep.

nxt day, i returned and i opened my computer to see it changed to 174GB..

?!#!@#!@%#@%$&%*!#!#!@#!#!$#

WHAT?!@#!@

HOW THE HELL THAT HAPPEN?

i haven't downloaded or installed anything new so what's up with that?!@#!

i am very careful about my notebook cos i'm terrified that something will happen to it
and i'm super cheapo when it comes to the space left in it!

SO WHAT GIVES?!!

i panicked and started looking through my files to see what program could i have accidentally installed or something without knowing, that was 3GB in size!!

that's a lot dude!

and it can't be Sims cause i properly uninstalled that already!

so i've been searching up all kinds of information at help centers available on my notebook.
i even went to websites, trying to figure out what i did or did not do.

i scanned my computer twice.
i'm currently running a disk defragmenter.
i've looked at my control panel three times over.
i am worried and annoyed and sad.

someone with some notebook intelligence pleaseee pleasee help me out.

i'm completely clueless!!

ANYONE WITH ANY CLUE WHAT'S GOING ON, PLEASE MSG ME!

PRONTO!

.. please

=(

pictures are always better than words

2008-12-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

an extremely brief summary of what i did today :

HAHA!!!

oh yeah, for on xmas day :

awww.. how cute is that?

LOL!

gotta love the holidays man
:)

interesting nevertheless :)

2008-12-26T02:52:00.002+08:00

random info of the day :

what was the best selling book sold in America this year?
clue : it ain't Harry Potter ;)

haha super random

:)

christmas eve

2008-12-24T14:51:00.002+08:00

wow time really flies by fast.
can you believe it?
it's dec 24th today!
it's Christmas Eve people!!!!
like wow, Christmas is back.
it's probably due to our tropical climate that the people in Malaysia don't really seem to give a damn about it.
or maybe it's just my family.
haha oh well, i didnt realize that it was Christmas tomorrow.
i can still remember CNY vividly in my head.
driving 5 hours to Sarikei with my sisters and parents in our cramped car,
playing fireworks with my cousins whom i rarely get to meet,
being exhausted from the journey,
going out with friends to other friends' houses,
playing blackjack - losing my ang pao money :( .

and fast forward a bit, then boom!
Exams are over.
Mock is over.
SPM is over.
all those late night cramping and pulling out my hair is over.
all those breakdowns are over.
all those worrying is over.
all those sleepless night are over.

then TA DA!
Christmas Eve!
man, time flies by too fast sometimes.
if you're not careful, you just might miss out on everything worth remembering.
hmm life is so strange.
we live out our lives, we do what we're suppose to do, fulfill our responsibilities,
then what next?
after SPM ended, most of us were just kinda in a daze.
we didn't know what to do or what not to do.
even doing things which were so common and simple to us like watching tv felt foreign.
going online, not to search up information about EST or test papers, felt out of place.
at the beginning of course.

hmm
now Christmas is coming.
you know what that means don't you?
the year 2008 is coming to a close.
few more days and it's all over.
another chapter closed in our book of life.
and on January 3rd, a new one opens up.
well for me anyway.

:)
merry christmas you guys.

great titanic cover

2008-12-23T21:41:00.001+08:00

hey guys.
any of you seen Titanic?
if you haven't, you're weird.
if you have, isn't it like the most romantic love story ever?
besides 'A Walk To Remember' of course. ;P
anyway
i found this on youtube and it really had me in stitches.
haha enjoy :)

gator VS python

2008-12-21T22:32:00.003+08:00

ever wondered what would happen if a python got into an argument with an alligator?
ever wondered who would win?
how about how would they fight one another?
cause frankly, i can't imagine it myself.
i have seen an alligator fought with a lion, duh the alligator would totally kick the lion's arse.
but how about a python?
a 1.8m alligator against a 3.9m Burmese python?

hmmm
i bet whatever your answer is, it's wrong.
=)
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They both die.

as you can see from above or not, the python actually exploded after it tried to swallow the alligator whole.

HAHA SICK!!

i tried analyzing the picture but i just can't see it.
lol it looks photoshop-ed.
i wished they took more pictures at different angles so at least i could see the bodies clearer.

SICK DUDE!!

haha it frigging exploded!
what the heck man?

It says that the python's remains were found with the victim's tail protruding from its burst midsection. Oh and the head of the python was missing.
sick!

so there you have it.
ha! i bet whatever your initial answer was, was wrong.
haha creepy random info, my specialty.
lol

:)

i am inlove

2008-12-21T21:53:00.003+08:00

hello everyone!
(ignoring the vacantness of the room)

how's your holidays going?
argh guess what guess what guess what!
i am inlove
today i fell inlove

just for giggles, i decided to msg a few of my friends saying only :
'i'm inlove'
i was curious of their reactions lol.

some answers were ridiculous though lol
anyway, sad to tell yall but my new found love aint a guy, OR A GIRL (-_-")
it aint even human.

IT'S MY BRAND NEW HP DV3000!
haha i kinda forgot the model
i rmrb the model which i initially intended to buy which is a d5-1063 but it's huge!
and the model is out of stock -_-
ridiculous

anyway, so my dad and i went to notebook haven aka Saberkas with my sis and cousin.
we walked up and down for ages, just window shopping at random notebooks.
finally, we went to the second or third level to this computer shop (didnt bother to look at the name of the store)
anyway, we were greeted by a cute salesguy , Eddy.
haha anyway, we talked and talked and walked back and forth, analyzing all the different qualities in a hp notebook.

FINALLY WE SETTLED DOWN on this baby.
it was pretty tiring cause my dad kept checking and rechecking everything
btw i have no computer knowledge whatsoever
sure, i can type pretty fast, about 75 words per min (is that fast?)
i know how to install games and stuff
yep that's about it. lol
processors, RAMs, graphic cards etc.
you might as well be speaking to me about cars models and their engines -_-
lol

so that's why i'm so thankful that i have my daddy who probably has a degree in just about anything.
my dad's the wisest guy i know.
anyway, long story short, we got my laptop at a bargain plus loads of freebies.
my notebook's cover is kinda brown in colour, with a free light green mouse and a purple 4GB pen drive.

haha my dad's philosophy :

'The notebook is brown representing the tree,
the mouse is green representing the leaves,
the pen drive is purple representing the fruits.'

it was so random and out of the blue, that i burst out laughing.
honestly!
haha the randomness of my dad.
now i know where i inherit it from.
:)

anyway, right now, i'm just so thrilled with my babeh.
i have lost interest in going out, all i want to do is play with my notebook.
btw, i'm thinking of a name for her.
so feel free to hit me with some ideas yo.
haha kinda sexist how people usually name their belongings eg. a car with female names.
haha but that's a completely different topic for a different post.

oh and i'm sorry for the lack of updates.
i'll be sure to update more often eh?
so please don't give up on me.
i was quite surprised to see my analytics when i checked my nuffnang account.
you encourage me to blog about more random stuff!
haha crap

i love my new notebook.

:)

happy bday andre!

2008-12-13T00:51:00.005+08:00

happy bday andre! =)

ash's awesome bday party

hmm kinda retarded looking pic but oh well :)

my fave pic of omg :)

first official movie review

2008-12-12T00:04:00.004+08:00

hey alright, so i went out today with the guys.
a few years ago, if i said the guys, i meant literally the guys!
but now, i'm proud to say, i have crossed over with the other sex and made new acquaintances. =)
anyway, what the hell am i talking about?

we went to see 'When The Earth Stood Still'
five words

S-U-C-K-S

it was so frigging terrible and dull and boring!
i was sitting there, waiting for the climax or something
but all i got was loud screeching noises that made my ears hurt

to make myself clearer :
andre sat next to me in the cinema with zoe on my left.
you could not have placed me next to two completely different individuals
on my right : zoe is sort of jumpy, comments and responds to every exciting or surprising action from the movie with her body language.

on my left : andre is slumped in his seat, staring blankly at the screen, and busy texting.

lol kinda funny.

anyway, we went to Duolos afterwards cause we just wanted to kill time and were bored
ash drove KL's car, joel drove zoe's aunt's car and KW drove his cooper.
btw, when a person is behind the wheel, he becomes A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT INDIVIDUAL!
lets just say, they were a lot of cursing and yelling lol.
haha that's all i got to say.

anyway, i cant remember the last time to see the huge ass ship.
i have only vague images like little tiny me staring at the enormous boat.
i can't really imagine the volunteers who live on the ship and sort of dedicate their time and energy to this magnificent ship.

i'm sort of claustrophobic so i dont think i will last long in a cramped compartment, sleeping with 3 other individuals.
hmm nevertheless, the thought of visiting so many different and foreign countries around the world plus meeting and making so many different friends kinda got me intrigued and interested.

for example, the girl who sold an ice cream to me on the ship was korean.
the guy whom i purchased a book by Max Lucado was german.
i just can't imagine the life they live and how they could possibly adjust back to reality once their time on Duolos is over.

kinda gets you thinking uh?
hm what would you do if you had the chance of a lifetime to live on the largest and oldest ocean liner in the world?
i read a brochure that said Duolos started in like 1914.
pretty cool.

alright that's all for now
i'm out.

happy bday ash

2008-12-11T13:33:00.004+08:00

happy birthday ashley
=)

those days with francis tan, mostly we just went there to eat the roti canai -_-

yes, that is ashley lee's ass. during damai, izzat's going-away-party

with the man =P
*not you ash, im talking about the dude in green*

omg, i look so frigging corpulent as asheby would say. argh
that tennis thing at that thai restaurant

my first kiss =)

davedays' version of 7 things

2008-12-01T23:42:00.002+08:00

words cant describe how this video made my day better.
lol btw davedays is kinda cute =)
i subscribed instantly after seeing this video.
you should too =)

I probably shouldn't say this.
Because my friends think that I'm weird.
Everytime I say I love you they remind me you can't hear.
It's because you're cardboard. I'm always ignored.
But you feel so real to me why can't they see.
And you're still standing in the same way.
Just how i left you yesterday, against the wall.
Don't fall.

The 7 things I hate about you.
You're fake, you break, you are not real.
If only I had something to feel.
You are 2D with no back side.
You cost me quite a lot to buy.
My friends are jerks they make fun of us.
Just know it hurts. I want to be with the real Miley.
And the 7th thing I hate the most about you
You make cardboard look cute ;-)

It's awkward and silent because cardboard cannot speak.
I wonder what you think about when you smile and stare at me.
Dood are you serious?! You're delirious? She is cardboard
she can't hear us.
YES I CAN. (lyke WTF)
Dood zomg did she just talk?!
She's been real all along! Say something again!

DAVE NEVER TOUCH ME AGAIN!

The 7 things I like about you.
You're hair, your eye, cardboard Levis.
When we kiss you're hypnotized.
You let me do whatever I want.
I can't wait till Chris is gone! ;-)
We never fight when I hold you tight
Ow! Splinter! Ohhh it's alright!
I wanna be with the real Miley.
And the 7th thing I like the most about you.

You make cardboard look cute.

the end of a looong day

2008-11-28T21:47:00.006+08:00

it's over.

it's actually over.
i'm still in a kind of a daze, i suppose.
i can't really get over it.. it's been...
what? 3 days?
and like the rest, i can't help feeling a strange kind of vacantness.
a sense of freedom that i am not familiar with.
it feels like i have all the time in the world right now.

we felt like we had so many things to do before it
we planned so many things to do after it

well, it's over now.
so what next?

hmm

oh FYI, after it ended,
i haven't felt hunger at all.
strange, isn't it?
of course i've eaten meals but i did it simply for the sake of it.
it was like..
'oh its 9am, i should have breakfast now.'
'oh its 7pm, i should have dinner now.'
not because i was hungry or whatever.

strange.
is this a post-spm disorder or something?
hm interesting nevertheless.

=)

fatigue

2008-10-27T15:27:00.004+08:00

people say change is good right?
screw change.
change sucks.
change can just go and eat crap.
in fact, change is crap.
i cant wait to go to kl now.
screw all this.

i am tired of feeling bad about everything.
i am tired of being neglected.
i am tired of being replaced.
i am tired of being lonely.

i want to meet new people and hopefully, people whom i will grow close to

kl's a big place.
there has to be some decent people around whom i can get along with.
sighs

i am just so tired.

i wished you never left. :(

ryan reynolds

2008-10-10T18:01:00.002+08:00

"A couple of years ago, I walked uptown to Central Park on one of those perfect November days. The air had a bite to it while the sun shone bright. It was the day of the New York Marathon and I thought it might be fun to watch the runners nearing the finish line. So, I joined the crowd about a half-mile before the race's end at Tavern On The Green. With my arms resting on the cold cordon, I saw an incredible spectacle of people pushed to the very brink of collapse. I expected exhaustion, but what I didn't expect was to see just how much these runners had to EARN their prize. It was emotional.

The pain was etched into their faces so deeply, you'd swear they'd spend the next 3 weeks looking like Abe Vigoda. I saw guys coming in to finish with bleeding nipples. Why in the hell were their nipples bleeding? People were crying. People were limping, hobbling, screaming, crawling. But most importantly, people were experiencing a sublime rapture that I couldn't even hope to understand. They were touching something magical no stalk-still mortal simply watching the race could comprehend. These people had accomplished something real. At that moment, with all the energy, inspiration and passion swirling through the crisp autumnal air, I breathed in deeply and decided something: I'd never fucking do that ever, ever. What in the fuck were these idiots thinking? Bleeding nipples. Bleeding. Nipples.

Two years later, by some tragic backwards prophecy, I find myself signed up to run in the New York City Marathon. Every other day I train. I run like a bastard all morning. Not since the discovery of Junior High School has a torture been so effective. Why on earth would I willfully do this? On behalf of my Father, Jim Reynolds, who's spent the last 15 years in a life or death struggle with Parkinson's Disease.

Let it be known at the outset, I am not a runner. I am a running joke. Waking up at 4:30 am and jogging anywhere from 11 to 23 miles has been nothing short of horrifying. Although, I've never given birth to a professional basketball player through one of my tear ducts, I can't imagine a worse way to start the day. Conversely, some people have real problems. I digress...

A year and a half ago, I had the privilege of meeting Mr. Michael J. Fox. Like so many before me, I found it impossible not to be touched by his story of overwhelming strength, passion and relentless commitment to help those afflicted with this insidious disease. The man is inspiration exemplified. Plus, he was in Back To The Future. Which was, well, awesome. In a moment of extremely poor judgment, I offered to do something big for him--I offered to compete in the New York City Marathon. Which was, well... dumb.

While I'll probably never fully understand Michael's struggle, I've had a first hand peek behind the curtain of Parkinson's. I've watched my father -- a strong and proud person who successfully raised 4 arguably insane children - slowly, cruely stripped of his independence. His golden years robbed without explanation. It quite obviously sucks. Witnessing my Dad suffer over the years galvanized my need to step up. On November 2nd, I'll join thousands of other men and women to march in lockstep solidarity toward searing psychic pain and physical humilation.

One of the reasons I chose RUNNING specifically, was because (as Murakami so eloquently put it) my competition is the most formidable foe of all; ME. The person I have to beat is the guy I was last week. The person I was yesterday. Indescribably worse, those affected by Parkinson's wage a similar war in their own bodies every single day. Unlike a marathon, their struggle won't end in a shallow pool of vomit just outside Tavern On The Green while waiting for an ambulance. They continue day in and day out, silently battling away in the most personal of struggles.

Yes. I'm asking for a donation. I don't do this with any degree of levity. I know we're in rough times and there are literally millions of causes worthy of your hard earned cash. It's my hope the story of my father combined with my own goal of becoming the first person in history to sob uncontrollably for 26.2 miles straight, may inspire you to give something too.

Please know that NO DONATION IS TOO SMALL - and certainly, no donation is too large. And If you don't give anything at all, maybe I've primed you for a future donation in someone else's name. For someone else's cause.

If you visit the site below, you'll be directed to my page on the Team Fox Website. Michael's foundation has raised over 100 million dollars in the fight against PD. On my page you can leave a personal note of support or mockery along with your donation.

In the end, no matter how much I mythologize this run, no matter how much I choose to romanticize this campaign against my own will, lungs and ambition... there's always going to be that guy who finished the marathon on a pair of prosthetic legs. And there'll always be my Dad. And Michael. And Millions of others who bounce back off the ropes against all odds. So, I promise I won't congratulate myself too much.

Finally, if you happen to be in New York on November 2nd, come down and watch. Feel free to bring a smile, automated defibrillator, or a fresh set of nipples.

Click here for my Team Fox page

On behalf of Me, my Father, and everyone struggling with Parkinson's, our endless gratitude"

written by Ryan Reynolds.
picked it off perez's blog.

finally something positive for a change. =)
i knew i liked him since i saw him on 'two guys,a girl and a pizza parlor'.

USA president 08

2008-10-05T00:48:00.003+08:00

omg.. you're looking at the next possible president of USA.
he might be the next most power man on Earth.
.....
ARE YOU FRIGGING KIDDING ME?!
as for his vice president, Joe Biden..
WHAT THE HECK?!
what are they?
short on smart political americans?

Whoopi Goldberg was right.

"NONE of the senators are qualified to be the president.
the only person qualified to be the president is someone who has done it."

i vote for hilary clinton!

..
that is if i was an american.
a legal voting american.
-_-
just an opinion.

oh a completely different matter,
i think people on youtube are being extremely cruel with Sarah Palin.
they keep making fun of her and her family.
there was one video about her family called 'Family Matter' or something.
it was disgusting and twisted
especially the part sarah palin's 'husband' went to beat up their 'perfectly healthy' baby to make him disabled because she told McCain they're a pro bono family.
...
that was gross and revolting.

again just my opinion.

hhow long u've got =)

2008-10-03T21:59:00.006+08:00

go here and find out how long u've got -_-.
predictably, joel gave me this link.
check it out.

ps. people who find this kind of stuff are REALLY BORED..

btw, mine is march 2nd 2079

lol i will be exactly ..... 88 years old.
haha hope i will still be as sexy as madonna.
thought i dont like madonna.. her body is frigging creepy.
she's not human..

yay i blogged. =)

a music icon.

oooh.. that looks like it hurts.

like eww. she's pushing 50 and this is her new album.
wonder what her daughter thinks.
it puts the 'creep' in creeeeeeeeeeeeeepy.

jeepers creepers. look at those veins!
she's got more than morgan!

just call me your material girl.

HAHAHHAHAHAHA cant believe i jst said that. lol

for ppl who cant find tagbox =)

2008-09-24T22:42:00.003+08:00

for people who dont know..

look left. <<<<<< "what i've"
click on it to see my profile.

"been looking for "
click on it to see my links.

"all this time"
click on it to see my tagbox.

apparently, some people have been having trouble locating my tagbox. lol

on a completely different matter,
check out the day Keith Wong Shaulun became a man!!!!
hahaha click here.

add maths proj 08

2008-08-27T19:26:00.003+08:00

ADD MATHS PROJECT IS :

A) A WASTE OF MY TIME

B) A WASTE OF MY BRAIN POWER

C) A WASTE OF MY ENERGY

D) FRIGGING RETARDED-LY USELESS AND POINTLESS

E) STUPID

F) RIDICULOUS

G) SOMETHING I WILL NOT APPLY TO MY DAILY LIFE
(WTH?!)

H) STUPID

I) STUPID

J) STUPID

K) STUPID!!!!!

-_-

funneh day

2008-08-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

after showering in the open air bathroom, i came upstairs to hear this. :

'WHY YOU SO STUPID?!'

initial reaction : HAH?! why suddenly my mum yelling at my dad?

as i go closer to the source of origin, i see the tv showing men's double badminton match.
China VS Indonesia.

mum : WHY YOU WANT THEM TO WIN?

dad: ...

mum : GO INDONESIA!! GO INDONESIA!!

dad : why you want indonesia win?

mum *the kind-hearted soul that she is* :
....
cos China already win so many medals mah.
so go let Indonesia win this one cannot meh? they still havent win any.
finals boh!

dad : *looked disgusted with her answer*
....
GO CHINA!!

mum : WHY YOU SO STUPID?!
GO INDONESIA!

and you people ask why am i so humorous? ;)
i love the olympics!
btw check this article out.
damn, wish i was an athlete.
haha KIDDING!

okay okay no more posts after this. haha

not the update i was talking bout =)

2008-08-18T22:53:00.003+08:00

you know what?

i dont know why my last post seemed so hyper..

anyway

ive decided to go on a 'blogging holiday'

mock is so close that i can actually hear the test papers rustling together in the sweaty palms of madam voon.

haha shes not even my teacher but yeah..

dont like her.
=)

so guess i wont be updating.. for a looooooooong time.

after spm is over..

i shall update every single frigging day

till then folks.

this is sandra saying,
spm rocks!
=)
take cares

quickie

2008-08-10T18:29:00.003+08:00

post coming soon!

thought of a good one earlier!

SOOON! =)

p.s. SCREW BLACKOUTS!

esp when my ipod is flat!

thanks-to-my-retarded-sister-who-forgot-to-charge!

woohoo!! -_-

paris hilton for prez

2008-08-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

Paris Hilton Responds to McCain Adfunny videosFunnyOrDie.com

See more funny videos at Funny or Die

haha this is hilarious.
does anyone esle think paris is looking older?
im starting to see wrinkles.
haah but still... funny vide. lol
woohooo paris hilton for president
now that i would like to see. =)

an udpate :)

2008-08-03T22:44:00.002+08:00

things i immediately do when i go online :

a) first thing : perez =). i absolutely need a shot of celebrity gossip whenever i'm online. and perez hilton is the best place for it. i love the fact that he updates everyday so if let's say, i was busy on a certain day, then i go to his page the next day, that's double the dosage! haha i sound lyk a loon but honestly, i can't go on the net without going to his page. its a necessity!

b) go to postsecret. i find it amazingly how people write their innermost and private secrets on a piece of postcard and send it in to Frank Warren for the public to view. i have thought of doing the same but never actually found time to get to it though i am pretty sure i will someday. i love going there because sometimes the secrets i find, just happen to be something i can relate to. some of the secrets makes me intrigued, some makes my heart break, and some humor the crap out of me. the latest one that i read said :

'I clean hotel rooms and i always use ONLY ONE cloth to wipe everything like the floors, the toilet, the spoons and drinking cups etc.'

lol you just never know, eh?

c) i go to my own blog, duh. haha usually just to check out the tagbox and listen to the background music which is currently and has been for a few months now 'Here I Am' by Leona Lewis. haha i am going to change it because im sick of that song now but again, never exactly found the time to do it. i will though! =) any requests? im thinking 'I'm Yours' by Jason Mraz. =P whatcha thing? (inside joke)

d) check out my friends' blogs like ash(but he hardly updates. ass -_-), rach, pegs, joey, POY, skims, erics etc. i find skims the funniest because shes so hard core straight forward and direct. lol sometimes a good thing and i suppose a bad thing but whatever. i prefer people just being forward and honest instead of beating around the bush all the time and pretending to be someone they're not.

e) facebook? friendster? i hardly use friendster nowadays as the new hit thing is facebook. lol ermm what esle?

f) youtube. go search for videos like jonas brothers or happyslip which is FRIGGING HILARIOUSLY FUNNY. honestly, her name is christina and she originates from the Philippines but is american and she is soooooooo talented. i mean, she can make comedic sketches and she plays like mostly all the characters in her videos. haha she is so damn talented and funny. another guy i love to watch is Kev Jumba. he also makes funny videos and he collaborated with happyslip on several occassions. i think i did a post about them a few months ago but whatever. ahha check them out! they're the best. happyslip won 2nd place i think for most watched videos during some youtube award ceremony. haha plus kev jumba is cute. cheeeeck them out whenever you're bored.

haaha yeah that's about it. i think. anyone know any interesting blogs or sites they like to recommend? feel free. =) cya laters

P.S. anyone with pictures of me during interact night , please sEND TO me! THANKS!

another cinderella story

2008-07-29T18:40:00.002+08:00

im gay for still liking shows like this..
but screw it!
it looks better than the one with hilary duff and chad michael murray. =)
plus selena gomez is pretty
and the guy's the same guy that sang in the HSM tour
the one that actually sang for Zac Efron's role in the first HSM.

so yeah.. hes okay looking too.. lol
love the dancing bit

new skin!

2008-07-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

woohoo new skin

been wanting to do it for months..

kinda grew somekind of hatred for my old one..

lol dont you guys think i need a change too?

lol i got 2 videos to show everyone but.. i dont know why my draft is empty -_-

though i saved it just now. crapper

nvm here it is again. had to go to godtube.com to find it.

enjoy ppl.

this video was the same one that 'Mac' guy from the sex talk, showed us.
i thought it was very interesting so im showing it to you guys again. =)

this video made me think.. what would you do? haha just being random.
discuss =)

la la la

2008-07-20T14:31:00.008+08:00

i have put on so much weight that it's not even funny anymore =(
went to steamboat with the rest last night.
wasnt very fun cos some people didnt go =(
but oh well, last day i could go out anywhere.. mums restricting my driving privileges..

='(

oh thought of a post today, namely :

...

...

THINGS IVE DONE SINCE BERT CAME BACK :

a) driven the BMW

b) driven the porsche

(and sucked at it.. badly.. emphasize on the 'badly' part)

*this isnt the actual car but same model but diff colour and its a convertible. im too lazy to find the pic of the actual one cos its 12.05am and ive got school and im tired and currently, i cant breathe again cos of my stupid flu... *

c) eaten at pizza hut

(... and feel EXTRA BLOATED..)

*nyahaha 1300-82525.. 1300-82525.. *

seriously, thanks to him, ive put on SOOOO MUCH more weight -_-

d) eaten at Jojo cafe..

(actually i didnt eat.. just watch haha)

*haha i jst typed in 'Jojo cafe' for fun, not thinking i actually find an actual pic of the place.. but i did.. the wonders of the internet. lol.*

e) nearly reversing into another car in the bmw

( maaaaaaaathering scary and close -_-" )

f) wake up at 3.30am and change bedrooms -_-

(shall not elaborate haha to make you die of curiousity)

g) watch Hellboy2
(sucks in my opinion. cool special effects but plot is predictable)

hmm cant tink of anything esle at the moment.. so yeah. =)

btw lemme show you who bert is.. jst cos im bored.

haha it feels lyk im selling him on my blog or something -_-

oh well, whatever works right? ;)

haha im pretty sure losers lyk amah will be viewing my blog more often after seeing this. nyaahah..

......

on second thought, i cant sell out my own flesh and blood.

but i do accept cheques or cold hard cash if you are persistent enough. ;)

im so sad.. -_-

gnites =)

jeremy jackson.. ew

2008-07-06T22:04:00.005+08:00

remember coming home, after a long tiring day of school?
you drop your bag and immediately switch on your tv and at 5pm (or was it 6pm) Baywatch is on.
i remember Baywatch being one of my fave tv shows.
i would rush home just to watch the episodes.
NOT because of the hot bodies in the show -_-
i was still too young to understand what 'hawt' meant.
but because of the storyline..
the whole lifeguard thing saving the victim's life EVERYTIME..
yeah im such a loser.

anyway, remember Hobie?
David Hasselhoff's cute, young, buffed son?
omg.. he was so cute back then..
and then i saw this on perez and nearly died.

what he used to be look like :

awww.. right?

not really digging the wavy hair but he still looks cute.

hmmm okay.. maturing into...

PERFECTION!!!
THIS IS HIS BEST AGE EVER..
best age? wth? -_-
best look!
i mean he looks his best when he was lyk this..
arrrgghh i can even vaguely remember this scene i think.

sadness..
what he looks like now :

... okay so he doesnt look that bad here. hmm

no offense but i think he looks older than David Hasselhoff...

okay this one is the most frightening by far..
so prepare yourself..
i warned you..

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.
.
.
.
.
.
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*from his blog*

"Like a fine wine, J.J. just gets better with age."

Perez Hilton.

LIKE EWWWW!!
and whats with the red eye?!
it makes him look even creeepier!!
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww Hobie!!!
what happened to you?
i couldnt believe that was actually cute hot Hobie..
and what Perez said..
am i the only one seeing it or do you think he's hot too?

you would think Perez had better taste or something.
seeing as how he's lyk..
gay and everything

double ew.

Sighs still love Baywatch though.

i cried like a retard when Stephenie died in the sailboat accident.
btw, Stephenie is the chick on the right with short hair.
sighs.. i can picture that episode right now.

i miss Baywatch.

P.S. while googling for Hobie's pics, i came across a lot of other Baywatch actors mostly half-naked and SUPER BUFFED AND IN SUPER HOT SHAPE..
crap. too bad i was too young to understand it all =(

a blast from the past

2008-07-01T21:12:00.003+08:00

I have this theory that if one person can go out of their way to show compassion then it will start a chain reaction

- Rachel Scott, 17, first victim in the Columbine High School Massacre -

i found this quote a long time ago and totally forgot all about it.
but then, somehow i stumbled across it again and im glad i did.
after reading it, i felt like something inside me came alive again.

.
.
.
.
.

i understand now.

I will not be labelled average

- Rachel Scott -

the secret life of the american teenager

2008-07-01T14:24:00.002+08:00

i am so looking forward to this.

lame tv name but yeah.. looks nice.

someone correct me if im wrong but is the main character Marissa Cooper's little sister, Kaitlin from The OC? i'm not sure. la la la hope it shows in Malaysia!

no lipsticks for muslim women!

2008-06-29T22:12:00.001+08:00

(CNN) -- Authorities in a northern Malaysian city have forbidden Muslim women from wearing bright lipstick and noisy high-heeled shoes, saying the directive is intended to prevent sexual assaults and "illicit sex."

The national news agency, Bernama, said the directive was issued by the municipal council of Kota Baru and is aimed toward Muslim women working in restaurants and other businesses in the city. It said the ban will safeguard the morals and dignity of the women as well as thwart rape.

"It states that Muslim women are forbidden to wear thick make-up, like bright colored lipstick and high-heeled shoes that gave a tapping sound," the news agency said.

"For those who insist on wearing high heel shoes, they can do so but with rubber heels."

Kota Baru already has a directive calling for Muslim women to wear non-transparent headscarves that cover the chest, long-sleeved and loose blouses and socks.

Anyone not following the regulations can be fined up to 500 ringgit ($153), Bernama said.

Malaysia, a multi-racial society containing many ethnic groups, considers itself a moderate Muslim country. Muslims comprise about 60 percent of the population. Buddhists, Christians and Hindus who also make up the religious make up of the country do not face restrictions on clothing or practices.

The city of Kota Baru is the capital of of Kelantan state, which is ruled by the hard-line opposition party, Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party (PAS).

At one time, the party advocated for an Islamic state, but has backed away from the stance in recent months.

PAS was part of a loose coalition of opposition parties that won control of five of the country's 13 states in national elections held in March 2008.

The coalition also won 82 of 222 parliamentary seats -- making it only the second time in the southeast Asian country's history that the ruling party has failed to gain the two-thirds majority needed to amend the constitution.

so sad... and random..

funniest graduation speech so far..

2008-06-25T00:25:00.002+08:00

hahah this is funny.
its amazing.
he made a normally boring speech fun to listen to.
haha check it out here.

oh and i found a new website for celeb gossip besides perez.
click here to find out yall.

enjoy people. =)

yes!!

2008-06-22T12:02:00.003+08:00

YES!!!!!!!!!

The Glider

2008-06-21T10:40:00.011+08:00

okay i know i said no more negative freaky inhumane stuff but i cant help it that our world is spiraling out of control. there are freaks EVERYWHERE!! this story is even more disgusting and frightening than the Fritz family case in Austria... haha some may find that hard to believe but hey, check it out for yourself. From Austria to Iran to Czech Republic... as if we dont have enough problems already.

twisted stuff.

on a completely different matter altogether, i promised some people a positive and funny post so here it is. =)

btw, this will only be funny if you know someone i like to call 'The Glider'.

that was the beginning of my original post. I don't know how many people may have read it already but i decided to cancel it.

I AM NOT CANCELLING IT BCOS OF MR.PAPARAAAPA's comment.

first of all :

a) this is my blog. dont lyk it.. leave.

b) the post was just a joke.

truth be told, i was thinking about the post before i published it, on whether or not should i actually publish it.

Yes, it was mean.

Yes, it was cruel.

Yes, i was being a hypocrite of the person i normally am.. or at least thought myself to

be.

Yes, i feel ashamed about it now.

Yes, i feel guilty because when i see stuff like this going on tv, i'm the one who usually says

'Why does that happen?

Why doesnt anyone befriend him?

Why is he so sad?

Why is he thinking of suicide?

Why did he kill his classmates?'

So i have come to a conclusion.

I am thoroughly sorry to the person i offended.

Even though i know he doesnt read my blog, i am sorry.

I am ashamed of what I did and of the person I've become.

I say this all with sincerity.

I will, from this day forth, never repeat my actions.

again, i am sorry.

to paparaaapa : get a life. this is my blog. i am not scared of you. so what if you know my dad? loads of people know my dad. and you know what? go tell him for all i care. I did what i did. I apologized and i sincerely regret my actions. My dad will understand because he knows exactly what kind of person i am. so i am not afraid of you or your silly childish threat. who are you to think you can threaten me?

oh btw, out of curiousity, why did you delete your comment?

you know the world is a darker place when.. #2

2008-06-13T23:15:00.006+08:00

Before anyone judges me, please let me clearly state that i am not a racist or whatever.

My best friend's a malay. How can i be?

anyway, i just received this email and i just thought it was outrageous.

Is it authentic?

Can someone find out or something?

It looks real..

i mean the people in the background etc.

omg that poor little boy.

just look at his face in the final photo.

omg....

prepare yourself.

please someone tell me it's a fake or something..

i said i want HAPPY NEWS!!

postive news!!! not this!!

it's like you have a choice..
lose your arm or die of hunger?

simple, right?

O.O

You know the world is a darker place when..

2008-06-12T22:24:00.003+08:00

... when two innocent young girls are gunned down for no absolute reason whatsoever.

The girl on the left is Taylor Dawn Paschal-Placker and the one on the right is Skyla Jade Whitaker. Left girl is only 13 years old. Right girl is 11. O.O..

According to investigators, the two girls had planned a sleepover at Taylor's house the night they were killed. They left the house about 5 p.m. Less than 30 minutes later, Taylor's grandfather discovered the girls' bodies in a ditch on the side of a road, near a bridge that is a popular gathering spot in the area.

Two beautiful harmless girls died in a matter of minutes.. just like that.
Their entire 13 and 11 years of existence.. was just taken from them..
they were robbed of their lives.. 13 and 11 is an extremely young age to die.
They had their whole life ahead of them..
but just like that..
everyone that cared for them.. lost a someone precious and dear to them.
just like that..

Makes you want to go 'WAT THE HELL?!?!?!'.

Investigators were considering a variety of motives as they searched for suspects, including the possibility of a "random thrill kill." For people who are goon-du and never watch 'Crime and Investigations', it means killing randomly. Lots of murders have been committed that way. It's when psychos just randomly select their victims, follow them and then brutally kill them. They don't need a reason for their actions. They just need a target.

People like this should rot in jail for eternity. Taking the life of another person, unintentionally is a different story but doing it deliberately... the thought is just disturbing.

When i was up one night watching E!News, I cant remember the names of the couple but I know their just really Christians and were about to get married. They took a short holiday together somewhere in the US then were planned to be wed the following day. They never showed and a few weeks later, police found suspicious looking sleeping bags on a secluded part of the beach.

When they went to investigate, they found their bodies. Their murder was never solved and their murderer was never caught. That was a random thrill kill. And that was equally as horrible and inhuman.

Sighs.. when i saw the picture of the two girls.. my heart kinda melted. It makes you wonder what kind of world we're living in. What's happened to our world? Humans are suppose to be the smarter, alpha species. What happened?

Taylor's uncle, described his niece as an intelligent girl who loved animals.
"She rescued turtles on the highway and wrote her name on them and turned them loose in the country."

He also said Taylor was at the top of her class in public school after being homeschooled most of her life.

"She was very smart," he added, who last saw Taylor two weeks ago at a family reunion

Poor guy didn't know that was going to be his last.
I'm still disturbed.

Someone blog about something positive please.

for sidney who obviously has no life and loves my blog =P

2008-06-09T23:52:00.003+08:00

Chemistry test just over today about redox reaction. hmm not bad la. for once, i could actually answer all the questions. -_-.. that is an amazing achievement already. haha plus the marks is going to be added on into our exam so hopefully i did well.

Bio test on Wednesday about coordination and movement. in short, crap load of hormones' long names like luteinising hormone (shit i jst realized while trying to type out the names of the hormones, i cant seem to rmrb exactly how to spell them -_- this is not good. )

plus their functions which is MORE THAN ONE. la la la la la la. dont forget the nephrons which is a basic functional unit for kidneys. and how its made up of the glomerulus and associated blood vessels, the Bowman's capsule and the renal tubule.

oh and the renal tubule is made up of 3 parts namely : proximal convoluted tubule, loop of Henle, and distal convoluted tubule. mwahahaha i sound so smart =P. crap hope i do well for bio. i actually kinda like it but the names of the stuff ARE SO LONG!!!! eg. Adrenocorticotrophic hormone! now try saying that 3 times real fast. =)

Sejarah test on thursday. yipeeeee its like holidays have come early . -_-
sejarah is crap useless (no offence). i mean what's the point of memorizing all the names and parties involved in the creating our country? i mean.. ITS SO BORING! its like moral. we just memorize them like crazy people. after spm, then wat? its all thrown down the drain.. all that studying, cramping, hours spent revising, hairs fallen out due to stress.. and for what? we arent going to apply any of it when it comes to college etc. WATS THE POINT?!?!

unless you're interested in becoming a history teacher, historian or some kind of politician.. THERE'S NO POINT IN IT!!!!! sighs.. all this perjanjian-s and persekutuan-s and persatuan-s are driving me crazy. arrrrrrrrrrgh. it doesnt help that most of the leaders or activists have nearly the same names. -_- imagine if the person who created UMNO's name was Jack. hahaha that would be kinda funny AND SO MUCH EASIER TO RMRB!!!! -_-

sighs. oo paper 3 tests are next week. all science subjects. woohoo.. christmas came early this year -_-"

happy sid? =) haha

gossip girl fans! u hafta READ!

2008-06-03T20:15:00.005+08:00

okay while browsing through blogs today, i stumbled upon something so hilarious i have to share with everyone. okay, first question : Do you guys watch Gossip Girls? that hit nbc show based on the popular novel by Cecily someone? basically, it revolves around the lives of socialite young adults growing up on New York's Upper East Side who attend elite academic institutions while dealing with sex, drugs, jealousy, and other teenage issues. *from wiki*

okay, so anyway like i said, i was just reading through people's blogs and i found someone wrote something in skim's chatbox. it was a website.. it was this website. hahahahahahha when i scrolled down and read its content, i nearly rolled off my chair laughing.

its about some girl who refers herself as Rumour Girl (get it? Gossip girl change to Rumour girl. Malaysian version. *wink* omg so creative. props! -_-) lol and if you're familiar with the hit series, you will know that on every episode, Gossip girl starts the show by narrating and she always starts the show saying 'Good morning Upper East Siders, Gossip girl here. Your one and only source to the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite. .. blah blah blah'

ahah the part that still kills me is :

Your one and only source to the scandalous lives of Abdillah's elite. *eek.. i just died.*

if you continue reading, you will see that the writer *cough*, oh excuse me, Rumour Girl is trying to mimic the hit show by pretending to be Gossip Girl. wow, kuching's very own gossip girl. i didn't know kuching was so interesting. -_-

she has characters like Sober Boy, A, Hansen and Gretel etc. i'm not sure but from my point of view, i think she lives in KL. haha star cineplex is mentioned. wow she makes kuching *cough* guys seem so interesting and hotter when they're really not at all.

Get a cup everyone, this brew is new.

anyway, if you're bored, i strongly suggest you take a look at kch's very own Rumour Girl.

just when i thought no one could get lamer.. this happens. lol life is filled with interesting people.

Love me, hate me, or do me both
Buzz Killer
Rumour Chick

-_-"""

i cant wait to see what skim's got to say about this. haha

argh 2

2008-05-31T17:28:00.002+08:00

CIBEH GOT ANOTHER STUPID OLD MAN STARING AT ME! just now! at the same traffic light!
WAT THE HELL?!?!!!
stupid bald guy KEPT LOOKING AT ME..i swear!
im not being vain.

everytime i look left which i did 3-4 times to check if i was imagining things, the bloody middle aged man who looked married, was LOOKING AT ME!

JUST LOOKING!
didnt even bother to pretend and look away when i was staring back at him!
wat the hell is wrong wif adult kch drivers?!!!?!?!?

then he keep nodding his head too..
WAT THE HELL?!?!??!?!!?!?
btw his car plate 9889. dunoe what car. forgot. but its white.. or silver..

WAT THE HELL?!?!?
this time i swear, i did ntg wrong at all. not saying i did smtg wrong in the other post, but yeah la!

kch ppl so frigging cibeh rude.. at least some of them

2008-05-31T13:59:00.002+08:00

omg man.. this what happened last night :

krystle : *called* eh want go hui sing hawker centre eat supper? we just finish tuition.

sandra : okay okay. coming.

*hmm.. should ask shui to go too. i hate driving alone at night. maybe bcos its pitch black in my car at night -_-.

sandra : shui! want go hui sing hawker centre eat supper with krystle?

shui : erm erm erm.... okay lah. *very reluctant*

sandra : im not forcing u -_-" dun go dun go lah dong.

shui : haha okay okay

sandra : amah krystle will be there.

shui : *suddenly got energy* OKAY OKAY!!

-_-"

few minutes later, shui in car already.

at the turning, where i try get on main road, just chit chatting wif shui in the car.

i saw that the other car was still quite far away so i just drove out la. drove onto the right lane.

cibehh i didnt even realise this until we stopped at the traffic light.

i look to my left, i see the bloody woman driver in a white naza i think, STARING AT ME.

staring at me wif lyk a pissed expression.

im lyk all confused so i just keep looking at her too la.

then she start opening her mouth and saying stuff to me.

obviously i cant hear cos both our windows are shut.

but obviously shes saying rude stuff. scolding me la.

celaka i never meet people so rude one.

im a frigging P driver okay!

F u la! bloody asshole.

i dun even tink i was wrong. piece of shit man.

you see a car coming out of a turning, oF COURSE U SLOW DOWN RIGHT?!

ONLY A FRIGGING FTARD WOULD CONTINUE ACCELERATING OR ACCELERATE EVEN MORE!!!

bloody hell! your license is kopi-O one isit? celaka.

blooody fag man. bloody fagging idiot! so frigging pissed now that i tink about it again.

puboh shit man. so frigging annoyed.

i rmrb her car plate number 2277.

okay if i see nxt time on the road, im gona scratch her bloody white naza and poke her tyres!

asshole!

ARGH!

*im just kidding. im not gona do that. im not that evil. -_-"

=(

2008-05-30T16:14:00.001+08:00

i want to do something fun...

any ideas guys?

got a week left before school starts..

sighs.

sadness fills me.

=(

here in my home

2008-05-27T11:28:00.006+08:00

Here in my Home

this song was made locally. haha believe it or not?
and its actually nice to listen to. hahah

cool facts :

a) at 3.06, Cikgu Govin appears.

b) at 3.13, the sepet duo appears. makes u wonder if they really together? hmm dun tink so.

c) the only artists i recognise in the video is Reshmonu(?), J.Victor, Jason Loh and... the malaysian football coach, i tink that Daniel guy who won malaysian idol?, Amber Chia..
yep tats it.

the video is kinda unorganized but the song is niceee. check it out.

makes me proud to be malaysian! =)

LEGAL!

2008-05-24T23:49:00.004+08:00

a poem i call 'mothers of kuching, beware!' :

mothers of kuching, beware!
sandra the hottie has finally gotten her own set of wheels!
therefore, you can find her out and about on kuching streets!

mothers of kuching, beware!
lock your hot sons up and even husbands!!
for sandra the hottie has been known to attract all sorts of different types of men.
young or old, she has the power to make them weak in their knees and quiver at the sight of her irrestible charm and astounding beauty.

mothers of kuching, beware!
lock your hot sons if you wish to spare them!
sandra the hottie shall not be held responsible for her acts.

that is all. =)

btw my first response was : YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

*note : the pic looks kinda nasty but the big picture is.. IM LEGAL! =)