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Sunday, September 23, 2007
i hate the fact that... 6:15 PM

me
i hate the fact that i'm so indecisive about everything
i hate the fact that i'm always second-guessing myself
i hate the fact that i have zero self-confidence
i hate the fact that i'm so dependant on people around me
i hate the fact that i always need someone i know around me when i'm with strangers
i hate the fact that i can never seem to stand on my own two feet
i hate the fact that i have so many insecurities
i hate the fact that i might never change
i hate the fact that i'm going to be alone someday
i hate the fact that i might miss out on life's opportunities with these problems
i hate the fact that i might one day look back and regret everything
i hate the fact that i have no one to confide my feelings with

life
i hate the fact that sometimes i feel as if the weight of the world is on my shoulders
i hate the fact that there are so many problems in life that can't be fixed
i hate the fact that i can do nothing about anything
i hate the fact that i always somehow hurt the ones i love
i hate the fact that life is not as easy as they portray it in movies
i hate the fact that growing up changes people
i hate the fact that everyone is different now
i hate the fact that maybe things will never return to normal or how it used to be
i hate the fact that i'm going to change too
i hate the fact that whatever path i take, it's going to be a lonely and scary one
i hate the fact that there's no one who really understands me or how i feel
i hate the fact that the year is nearly over and i feel like i missed out on something

you
i hate the fact that you might never be the same guy i knew
i hate the fact that you will move on and never look back at me or.. us
i hate the fact that you will eventually forget about me or the happy memories we shared
i hate the fact that you seem content with your life without me
i hate the fact that you act as if you don't miss me
i hate the fact that you never call anymore or call back
i hate the fact that you don't talk to me like how you used to
i hate the fact that you've already moved on.. without me
i hate the fact that you broke your promise of always being together
i hate the fact that what my parents said is all coming true
i hate the fact that i can't confide with you anymore
i hate the fact that the only one now who knows all about my worries and problems is my diary
i hate the fact that you seem to have already replaced me
i hate the fact that i don't have a replacement for you


Tuesday, September 11, 2007
My PoSt YoyOyoYO!!!~!!~ 7:57 PM

sUp? in dA hoUse YeO'aLL!!! my h0oD DaWg!?!!? Y0yO SanDiE in d@ FaLcOn BeAch YeO'aLL!! ya nOe WaT I HoLLaIng! yOe'aLL.. yA FeELinG MuAh?!?! yeO'aLL!!! daNcIng & chiLLinG in Da HOOD!!! yeO'aLL... MY SESSA?Y POST LUV YA PEACE OUT CHIGGAH!


Monday, September 10, 2007
interclass debate finals 5:16 PM

sighs sry everyone for not updating. tat is im hoping thr are actually readers or watever. neways if u were in school today u've known we lost in debate finals to chang mien's team which consist of hilarious matthew and factual aaron. haha it was fun i guess but so mentall exhausting.

it started off when miss teo elected elvina,brendan and i to represent our class. at first when i thought bout it, i was like hmm ok cool. but brendan absolutely refused to do it so he was replaced with krystle. all 3 of us btw are total beginners so it was kinda nerve wrecking.

ok the first debate we ever had was against 4A which consisted of sarah,jessie and sheryl. hahaha we were all beginners and nervous. the motion was THBT animal experimentational should be banned. we were the goverment bench and 4A was the opposition. so krystle went as prime minister and gave her speech. it wasnt very good and there were alot of pauses but it was her first time so it was ok.

then sarah went up and sarah was even more nervous i tink. she said less words than krystle and had longer pauses but we were all beginners! so yea! then it was my turn. somehow i said the most and the loudest cos i was nervous but i tried to just be cool and speak very loudly to scare the opposition bench. it worked. i talked for only 4mins but i felt much better wen i sat down. jessie went up. then sheryl. then elvina finally. the result: we won and i got best speaker =DD

2nd debate was against dexter's team which consisted of bryan and brendan. haha the motion was sex education should be banned. hahaa it wasnt nice to go against ur classmates but it had to be done. in the end, we lost and i wasnt so good but elvina and krystle were starting to warm up to debate.

3rd debate was against phoeb's team or otherwise known as the mooters. lol it consisted of zoe and ash. hahaha we were terrified to our wits end on tat one. we all heard stuff lyk the mooters being the best team and phoeb being able to answer all kinds of POIs. it was okay i guess. the motion was THBT all citizens should do a period of national service. this time elvina and krystle outshined themselves. they really showed improvement in their debating skill despite being beginners. the mooters were actually beginners as well as they specialised in mooting and not debating so it was kind of new for everyone. neway the most important thing is I SPACED OUT! I TOTALLY PANICKED! FORGOT ALL MY STUFF! lost of words!

i started trying to piece words together and i end up saying :

'with NS, we will learn to cooperate with the different religions like Chinese,Indian, and Malays.'

hahahah all of them wouldnt stop making fun of me bout it afterwards. owells we learn i suppose. when louis announced tat we won, krystle and elvina both jumped off their chairs and high fived each other, letting out cries of happiness. i was the only one at the table who leaned on the table and cried out, 'NOOO!!'

lol i was tired of debating especially after my humiliation and wanted to just be done with the whole thing. but no, we had to win -_- so tat meant we were in the finals on monday which is today. hmm its ok we din win. i mean i wished we did but its still ok. not the end of the world o smtg. i'll live =)

ok got chem test tomolo. not done revising. so yea. today is PMR's mock and SPM's trial rite? good luck to everyone. to think, it'll be 3 more months and i'll be starting form 5C. shit im too young for SPM! haha crap tis time next year i'll be cramming like mad. oh no! oh man! =(


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