sometimes when i am still awake in bed, i start thinking about it
especially after someone asked me about it during the day
i go back and lie down and just ponder for a moment
then sometimes my heart rate quickens and i feel my palms starting to sweat
i feel nerves and i am lying there, agitated and a little scared
what happens if i don't?
what's next?
this really keeps me up at night sometimes
which is why i try my best not to think about it at all
but yet, sometimes.. it just hits me from no where and i'm left lying there, feeling scared
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