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Labels: people -_-, ramblings, thoughtsthis has been a very long 2 weeks orientation is finally over!i didnt realize how tiring it was and i didnt really realize how little i was eating in the beginning toothe first few days i only had like a meal a day or small snacks i usually skipped dinner bcos by the time i got home every night, it was usually pretty lateand i was too tired to eat or drive to get foodshit la. i think i became a lot darkerdespite my attempts to salvage my skin with sunblock, i still can see the difference in my skin colour :'(gahhh its like everyday it's soooo hot!the weather is killer, mananyway, the thing i wanted to blog about was that,i realized that i really take notice of the little things people doand i can get soo irritated by some people i mean some things are just basic courtesy yet many people seem completely oblivious to iti'm just saying, if you're not considerate to me, don't think i will be to you eitherit's like.. i don't know.stuff as petty as paying for the parking ticket or offering a nice gesture means a lot to meand i really take note of such thingsit's like.. i'll be nice to you if you're nice to me and i will be really nice to you if you're really nice back, know what i mean? i don't know. i guess the big word is being consideratewhich sooo many people are notand it irritates the hell out of mei mean, the other time we went out with our seniors and they drove.i paid for his parking ticket bcos i thought since we were using his car and he had to drive around so much, i figured it was the polite and considerate thing to do.yet, i was just amazed at how everyone else just kinda looked away or seemed oblivious to iti don't think it's asking too much for people to be considerate, right?
it finally happenedall those hours spent worrying, doubting, stressing, pushing, cryingit finally happened:)still in disbelief thoughseeing my name on the letter was just.. a kinda cool momentalright now i've been given the opportunitythe rest is up to mei just realized my new motto this year:P.U.S.Hi can do itand i will do iti hope :-)this year will be excitingcan't waitstay tuned :P
i'm tired of the presenti want to go back to the pasti want to go back to this moment
A new year.. Sometimes I feel like people enjoy making a big fuss over unimportant matters. I mean, don’t get me wrong, a new year is I suppose big but… Ah ignore me. What do I know? Maybe I’m just rambling cause I’m bitter. Haha But come on, a countdown? I mean.. if you really want to go all out and celebrate this joyous occasion, at least throw a party of value. I mean, look at New York City or Sydney, they really know how to throw a good banging bash. One of my dreams is to be in Madison Square Garden when the new year’s ball drops.. on tv, it looks positively beautiful and perfect. Imagine actually being there… wow, now that’ll be something. It’s officially 2010 I must say 2009 was an exceptionally dark year… not in the sense of me being emotional or whatever but.. in the sense, so many lives were lost this, I mean last year. From celebs like Michael Jackson, Bernie Mac, the drummer from Avenged Sevenfold, Brittany Murphy, Heath Ledger to people you knew growing up like Aaron. I don’t know if it’s just me but somewhere along the year, it hit me that many lives were taken this year.. I don’t know.. it just got me wondering. Labels: ramblings
for a very long time now, i have come to the realization that i am not a very nice person.i am able to treat some people so cruellyit's always so much easier when someone gives you a scenario like someone doing wrong or someone bullying someone and you simply go 'oh that's wrong. he shouldn't do that. that's mean.'its so so so SO easy to judge, to criticisebut when the person in that scenario is you, it's completely different.everything changessuddenly, it doesn't seem that wrong to join the crowd and make fun of someoneit doesn't seem wrong or cruel to add to that person's painit doesn't even occur to you how that person must feel it doesn't occur to you that all that person ever needed was a friend, someone to talk toat that moment, you're only caught up in yourself and the crowd,what everyone is doingdespite your previous noble statements about right and wrong, you pick up your own stone and throw it at the targetted individualthis reminds of the story 'The Lottery'. i don't knowi always think and reflect a lot of myself and what i've done during my exam cramming periodsfor some reason, my mind always drifts away from my books and to my life and my actionsthe result being:i have wronged many individualsindividuals who have never done anything wrong to meindividuals whom had only wanted my companionship, instead i pushed their hands awayi looked awayi turned awaywhile cramming for my final exam, i even wrote down the names of people whom i thought i ought to apologise to, specifically for wronging themi look back now and wonder, how could i do such a thing?what i would give... to go back and have a do overi wonder what kinda person i would be today if i did have the chancei wonder if i like myselfhmmi just want to say, despite the fact that many those i've wronged won't read this, i just want you to know, i'm sorryyou deserve better
Labels: people -_-, ramblingsI HATE BIAS PEOPLEit frigging pisses me offwhy can't some people just look at the facts presented in front of them and just deal with it?why can't they just accept it for what it is?it's so frigging stupid
wtf manjust shut up
Labels: ramblingsafter a night of l4d-ing with the usual people, joel and i decided to drive around a bit, just talking about random stuff. we stayed at mickey dees till like 1am something then drove around. I sent him back around 2ish.seeing as how it was late and dark and slightly creepy, i decided to take a short cut home. instead of taking the long U-turn back to my house, i took an illegal shorter U-turn.imagine my luck when I see a flash of bright blue lights to my right.. a police car.O.Ofrightened out of my wits, i turned over
this is my first ever run in with the law, so duh i was kinda crapping in my pants, so to speak. -.-i usually don't break rules -.-i'm a very law abiding citizen -.-and i have never rasuah-ed a law enforcement before, or anyone for that matterso i had no idea how it worked.. i kept saying stuff like i was only a student and that i've never done the illegal turn before (not true :P ) etc etc.i was terrified of offending them if i offered them moneybut they kept saying stuff like 'you happy, we happy, everyone happy'then i figured it was probably safeso i gave them rm20sighslesson learnt :never ever listen to joel ngeawstupid git
i was looking at my calendar on my desktop and it hit meanother month or so of college, and it's all over.scary
Labels: ramblingsthis is going to sound super spoilt and i don't usually post about this sort of things but i think i'm going to make an exception for this one :)
i WANT an IPHONE
i am absolutely positively in love with the idea of having an iphone :(
first off, the keypad on my phone is kinda cacat.
example: when i ask people for their numbers, they type and then go 'ehh? i can't... press 7.. ' -.-
hhahaah
second reason, have you seen an iphone?!
isn't it absolutely the most beautiful phone ever created?
haha
i don't think i've ever wanted a phone so much before.
crap becoming materialistic :(
but can you blame me?
its beautifuuul!
its perfectioooon.
gaahh :(
the more i look at one, the more i want it. lol
so niceeeee :(
but i can't help thinking about what PC was talking about in SNL last week about giving back to parents and not just asking.
Being a giver, and not just a taker.
and yes, this is why i'm not begging for one which is kinda pathetic
instead, i'm just gona close my eyes and wait till one suddenly falls in my lap
:(
sighs gahh
a girl can dream :)
no comparison whatsoever
:)sighs
Labels: ramblingstoday was a very surprising afternoon
i discovered a few things that really just left me speechless and a lil confused
i don't know
i guess some people are just not what you expect
i mean, who really knows someone?
like really
no one
there's a thought
on a completely different note, i've been bitten by the GG bug
:)
Labels: ramblingsto my blog which is already dead.
well, i'm back in kch! :P haha
came back last thursday night. gahh the airports had several masked avengers, which kinda creeped me out cos it just made the whole swine flu epidemic more real and scary to me.
i was so paranoid i kept washing my hands, much to my sister's annoyance -.-
anywhoo, reached home and inhaled cleaaaaaaaaaaaan kch air
aaaah miss home :)
i dont know how many movies ive watched since i arrived. o.O let's see
twilight- on the plane
slumdog millionaire -i dont think it was such a greaaat movie but probably the nicest asian one ive seen.
angels & demons - didn't really lyk it that much
wolverine- but was in kl wif evone ppl, two words : FRIGGING AWESOME!! :)
DEBS - introduced by joey. watched it few years ago but was bored so watched again after download.
21 - rmrb radhie saying it sucked or smtg but watched anyway
Fast & Furious 4 - pretty cool but i still prefered the tokyo drift one i think. this one seemed to be missing smtg.. hmmm
yeah i feel lyk theres more but i cant rmrb. hahah damn sad right?
ooo i forgot. on the ride from kl to kch, i had the most interesting plane flight ever. my sister sat next to someone who was really sociable and he kept talking the whole way through, not in the annoying way though.
i was lyk trying to sleep but i ended up eavesdropping their convo which ranged from medicine to christianity O.O haha it was really interesting. ko im gona go wash my facee. just got back from supper wif the kl gang and some kch people :)
gah supper makes people fat.
celakaaa :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GT,D2!!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LI JI!! :) I STILL HATE YOOH! :)
haha
Labels: ramblingslooking at my desktop picture which is one of the nice group pics with OMG..
i realized something
i miss oyster :(
Labels: ramblingsI have decided to change, for the better I guess..
After reading my previous posts, I can see that I've subjected myself to unnecessary pressure and stress. I mean, it's good to have some pressure in life, but what's the point if it becomes overbearing that it becomes all you can think about?
From now onwards, I am no longer going to be emo and angry at myself all the time.
I'm gona try to get by everyday with what I got.
I'm gona try to stop being so careless and be more careful in thinking and writing.
I'm gona try my best to not hate myself whenever I realize I made a mistake.
I'm gona try to refrain from gossip and such deeds.
I'm gona try to make my parents proud
I have to at least try.
Labels: ramblings
sisters for life ;-)
stay strong everyone
he wouldn't have wanted everyone to be so sad
remember him happy
that's what i'm doing
last pics of him in my phone
him in a hair band lol
see i wasn't making it up
he actually wore a hair band.
lol he said it was too hot in KL.
notice how he folds his legs LOL
doing what he does best.
talking on his phones :P
Labels: ramblingswords can't describe
'Bless are those who mourn for they will be comforted' matt 5:4
"Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies, and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. " John 11:25-26
i don't usually read the bible but this situation changes everything
my heart goes out to those who knew and loved him
from my post in POY : to aaron
does anyone know how to move on after going through something lyk this?
cause i don't
please someone teach me, fill me in.
i.... i.... i still can't accept..... what's happened.
this morning, i went to school, went to phoebs apartment,
we just sat there and cried and shared some words.
i was calm and cool after we left
but when i saw shui mich and brian..
i broke down again.
i thought my tears would reach a limit whereby i would eventually just run out of them..
but that hasn't happened yet..
words can't describe.
this is not real..
this doesn't happen to real people.
it doesn't happen to your friends
and it certainly does not happen to good people
i just feel.. empty
i keep waiting for the time
when he'll reappear with his goofy smile and crooked glasses
when he'll crack a joke at me or elvina
when he would wear his hair band again, whereby suffering endless taunts from elv and i
when he would gel his hair up so high that he looked lyk a shark in a crowd
when he would offer us his cute yellow umbrella when it was raining
when he would smile whilst giving me that annoyed look whenever i said 'nos_evolution'
when he would swear when he was angry/happy/all the time actually :)
there's enough sadness on blogs, facebook, msn
i think we should dedicate this weekend to writing our fondest and happiest memories of aaron here.
the sun will to shine again people
i just need someone to constantly remind me that.
Godspeed everyone.
RIP aaron
1991-2009
Labels: ramblingstoday for breakfast, we decided to bite off more than we can chew
(geddit? geddit? -_-)
we ordered two pan mees for each other and a bowl of porridge.
after our pan mee, we were already so full.
but we had to eat the porridge anyway.
after awhile, she gave up but i was still slowly but steadily going
lol
but then, i bit onto something hard.
when i spitted it out, it hit the table with a loud thud sound.
i looked at it and discovered that it was....
a stone..
a stone in my porridge
a stone that was hidden in the meat.. i think
a stone.
she said it was a sign from God that i should stop eating.
which i did
i dont know if i should be grossed out or disgusted.
hmm
that was how my morning went today
:)
Labels: ramblingsdoes anyone know how it feels to just be plain unlucky?
a trail of mishaps that just seem... endless?
sighs well if you have, i guess i can say i know what that feels like now.
lets start off with the most recent events like today.
i woke up at 6.10ish am.
that was enough to make me jump out of my bed and into the bathroom.
usually, i try to get up around 5.40ish am so i can leave the house by 6am.
then i drive to the kopitiam that i go to nearly everyday for my morning booster namely KL's infamous cheeeeong-fan
(spelt so because that's the way i pronounce it :) )
okay so after that, it will be about 6.30-40ish am.
then i drive to school which takes me about 20-30 minutes
the reason for all of this?
TO GET GOOD PARKING!
DUH!
aduhai
i ended up parking in front of subway there.
okay fast forward, first period was chemistry lab.
i brought my lab coat but was wearing slippers.
it didn't really occur to me that i can only wear shoes to the lab -_-
anyway, after ms. kwa gave out the instructions for our practical,i walked to the back to get the supplies.
suddenly..
kwa : "SANDRA! get out! you're wearing slippers."
sandra : *dong face* "Ha? seriously?"
kwa : *super serious stern face aka the face where her eyes turn really big* "SERIOUS! GET OUT"
so i left the lab, dumbfounded.
i frantically began to call all my friends, asking if any of them were wearing shoes.
none of them answered which was expected as everyone were in their respective classes.
then i msg-ed phoebs for shoes.
she didn't reply and i figured she either left it in her bag or didn't hear it or couldn't reply since she was in class as well.
i began running up and down campus, looking for people familiar enough to lend me their pair of their shoes.
it was kinda silly.
everytime someone walked by me, i would stare at their shoes first then their faces. -_- everyone seemed to be wearing shoes.
in my state of histeria, i got a crazy idea of asking the web assistant/helper/guy if i could possibly borrow his shoes.
lol I WAS DESPERATE!!
this was how the conversation went :
(first meeting)
sandra : hey
web guy: hey
(second meeting)
sandra : "Hey, excuse me, can i talk to you for a sec?
*he came out of the web* Hey,i know this is very random but can i borrow your shoes for 10bucks?"
web guy : "Err.. i don't borrow people my shoes for 10bucks"
sandra: *thinking he meant he wanted more* "Err.. 20bucks?"
web guy : "Err.. i need my shoes to work."
sandra: "Oh okay nvm then. thanks!"
*inside, im thinking 'asswhite!'*
haha kidding
so i continued my search. -_-
then, received a text message from phoebs saying jon has shoes! woohoo!
i ran to their class which was D28 -_-.. i was at level B at the time.
i ran there in about 10secs -_-
i burst into the door and saw that it was CHONG teaching!
haha anyway, i must have looked quite a sight, panting and sweating, barely got my words out :
"CAN...
I.....
SEEEE..
JON..
....
PLEASEEE?"
haha love jon to death! jon i love u! i owe u big time!
then ran back to chem lab, finished the experiment.
i guess the adrenaline was still pumping inside of me, so i was still kinda jumpy.
so jumpy in fact, that i broke a conical flask. -_-
i turned up the water pressure too high and just broke it..
cut my ring finger.
worst part was my eyes started tearing up a little.
how gay is that?
it didn't hurt that much but it stinged a little only.
MY TEAR DUCTS ARE BROKEN!
they always go on by themselves -_-
usually at the wrong times again! idiots!
how embarrassing.
anywhoo, i think that was pretty much how things went this morning. hm
OOOH YEAH.
i got a parking ticket for 80bucks!
cause i parked outside someone's house cos i was late for class and cos there was no other parkings available.
pretty swell, uh?
-_____-
SAM fiesta was kinda disappointment for me FYI.
the music was bad. everytime a catchy clubbing tune came on, and people started grooving to it, they turned it off. -_- how retarded is that?
the choir was kinda weird and random. they were good but random to be placed in the fiesta.
met a lot of very fun and friendly people namely phoeb's classmates.
hmm there was a bit of dancing towards the end but sighs. wish it happened earlier.
hm yeah that's about it.
watching american idol now
hope anoop gets in.
**************
ANOOP GOT IN! TOP 13!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!
I LOVEEEEE ANOOOP DAWG!! =D
Labels: ramblingscollege life. dammn i sound old.
anyway, omg i'm in college now.
how frigging weird is that?
okay okay so anyway, orientation was awkward.
i am in G2 and i'm completely by myself!
i mean, i'm the only lodgian there,
the only kch person too!
signed in at student central with my family.
omg taylors was flooded with students and they were all just from SAM!
then, i had to dash off to MPH for the orientation talk or something.
met Phoebs along the way and Brian's kinda good looking housemate.
haha that's a different story.
i didn't introduce myself even when Brian intro-ed him to me
. -_- i am seriously lame.
don;t know why i did that.
anyway, the talk was lame! and boring!
something about mother eagles and baby eagles.
obviously, we're the baby eagles -_-
blah blah blah
sat with Aaron Teo and jon.
went to our classes when it was over.
argh argh argh.
it was totally weird cause when i walked into mine.
(i sat in the front row)
(because a girl in front of me kinda stalled a bit,
-blocking my way-
trying to figure out which seat didn't make you look too lame or nerdy and which seat made you cool enough that a random person would have the courage to talk to you.)
SO I did the idiotic decision of sitting in front.
omg i regretted it immediately because, who the hell sits in the front row during the orientation?
-_-
i thought about pretending to walk out to go to the toilet or something then walk back in and sit a different seat but i figured i was over-thinking it and just let it be.
i prayed someone would sit next to me so i could maybe start up a conversation.
HAHA I SOUND SO SAD AND LAME.
haha i saw some people interacting around already and it just made me sink deeper into my seat. -_-
im so lame la.
anyway, orientation ended quickly.
my mentor intro-ed and then let us off.
sighs
but first week of school just ended and it's.. okay i guess.
wait.. slash that.
first week of COLLEGE just ended. haha
ooh ooh i drove to taylors yesterday and the day before yesterday.
haha thank God the roads are basically straight but long.
KL drivers are crazy impatient idiots.
every small opening they see on the road, it's basically an invitation to zoom their big arse vehicle in.
argh haha but i'm learning fast :P
hm i made a couple of friends now but no close ones though.
it sucks that our lunch times are all different so i can't meet up with phoebs or the rest somedays.
oh well, i'm not in the 'in' crowd in my class because i'm not outspoken enough i think.
but at least, i have some friends :) mostly locals though.
yeah guess that's about it.
on the upside, there is one good thing about college life.
by the end of this year, i am going to have Beyonce legs babey :)
all this walking around, whilst slinging my heavy arse bag AND carrying heavy arse books all day long will definately take its toll on my boday.
haha something that i keep running through my mind whenever i'm huffing and puffing as i power-walk my way to my classes. haha
tell me about your college life :)
leave a tag and a link and i will go view it.
hope you guys are enjoying it.
going sunway pyramid tomorrow with phoebs.
IT'S THE FRIGGING WEEKEND BABEY!
TIME TO UNWIND :)
Labels: ramblingsi am so irritated.
last night i was happily watching Gossip Girls.
i checked my computer and saw that i had 177GB in my local drive.
yay that's good.
then, i went to sleep.
nxt day, i returned and i opened my computer to see it changed to 174GB..
?!#!@#!@%#@%$&%*!#!#!@#!#!$#
WHAT?!@#!@
HOW THE HELL THAT HAPPEN?
i haven't downloaded or installed anything new so what's up with that?!@#!
i am very careful about my notebook cos i'm terrified that something will happen to it
and i'm super cheapo when it comes to the space left in it!
SO WHAT GIVES?!!
i panicked and started looking through my files to see what program could i have accidentally installed or something without knowing, that was 3GB in size!!
that's a lot dude!
and it can't be Sims cause i properly uninstalled that already!
so i've been searching up all kinds of information at help centers available on my notebook.
i even went to websites, trying to figure out what i did or did not do.
i scanned my computer twice.
i'm currently running a disk defragmenter.
i've looked at my control panel three times over.
i am worried and annoyed and sad.
someone with some notebook intelligence pleaseee pleasee help me out.
i'm completely clueless!!
ANYONE WITH ANY CLUE WHAT'S GOING ON, PLEASE MSG ME!PRONTO!
.. please
=(
